Ex-Wife novel Chapter 37

The chapter is really long ass. The longest I had written till now. So be aware.

Xander Pov

Flashback Continue

As soon as I completed my sentence I felt a harsh push against my chest and this time the strength forced me to fell on the bed on my back.

Mia instantly stood up and that was the time I realized how much of the biggest mistake in my madness I had done. Her sobs ripped out of her throat and then I realized.

I snatched her happiness. Because of my selfishness.

Her happiness. The man that stood at the foot of the door keeping his hand on the wall for support. I couldn't believe what I have done. My senses kicked to me and my heart cursed me for doing something so vicious.

"Max I swear. I swear I didn't. He tried to --" Her words got cut short when Maxim snapped his teary eyes up shooting her a death glare.

"LIAR. Stop fucking lying to me already Mia. That fucker already accepted that your cheating on me. If you had feelings for him THEN WHY DID YOU ACCEPT ME. WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME. YOUR SUCH A WHORE MIA."

As soon as he uttered the last sentence I couldn't control the anger that entered my veins. Jumping on the bastard I punched him hard. And was ready to punch again but stopped when I heard his next words.

"What. Your gonna hit me. Go ahead. But this wouldn't change the truth that she's a fucking bitch who didn't think twice before breaking my heart. I was an idiot for giving my heart to her. I was ready to fight everyone for her. To keep her. But no. That desperate hoe---"

"SHUT THE FUCK, YOU BASTARD. OR I WILL KILL YOU." I punched him multiple times.

Soon I felt a hand grabbing my wrist and pulling me away from almost killing the guy.

"STOP IT Xander you have done enough." I left the guy and tried to touch her but she pushed me away running towards the bloodied man.

I gritted my teeth as tears blurred my eyes as well when she helped him to sit up and held his cheeks. He also turned his head towards her and they both stared into each other's eyes.

After all the things he said to her she's still looking at him like he's the most precious treasure. Heck, he didn't even believe her. Doesn't he had a little bit of trust in her that she wouldn't cheat on him.

"Don't touch me." Maxim spat out pushing her hands and stumbling on his feet. He pulled out something from his pocket and threw it at Mia who gasped out when it hit her chest.

"We are over. I was an idiot who wanted to start a new life with you. But you don't deserve it. Don't ever show me your disgusting face." With that, he limped out of the apartment while I stared at Mia who grabbed the box from the floor.

Her cries turned louder and then I realized. Ring. He wanted to propose to her. But I ruined everything. She clutched the box near her chest while sobbing hard.

God. What have I done? How could I do that to the girl who taught me what life is? How could I ruin her happiness just because of mine? How.

What have I done? What have I done? What have I done?

That was the mantra flooding in my brain as I stared at her figure crying hard while sitting on her knees. I should have said the truth. I should have proved her innocence. I should have never let my madness take over me.

"M-Mia I am s-sorry. I don't know what happened to me. I --"

Her head whipped towards me as she stood up with her trembling legs. I felt a hard punch on my heart when my eyes met hers.

Hate. That was the only thing flowing in her teary gaze. So much hate that I couldn't help but wince at the pain I don't even know where I felt.

"Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. DO YOU THINK SORRY CAN CHANGE ANYTHING? DID YOU HEAR WHAT HE SAID? DID YOU HEAR THE NAMES HE CALLED ME? YOU RUINED ME. YOU RUINED MY DIGNITY. HOW COULD YOU XANDER. HOW COULD YOU."

She yelled her lungs out while sobs again ripped out of her lips making me want to jump in the river and drown myself. How could I do that? I tried forcing myself on her. I forced her. I lied. I ruined her happiness.

"I never thought I will say that but I regret the day I pursued you to be my friend. Maybe if I had stopped going around you today I wouldn't have to hear the things my love said to me."

My lips parted and eyes widened hearing her words. Those venomous words were enough to stab my heart again and again.

She cried harder before standing beside the door. Her hand clutched the box like her life was depended on it. I took few steps closer but I didn't know what to do.

I never thought I can turn this heartless. How did I even end up doing this? How.

Author Pov

"How could you Xander. How could you do this? I trusted you more than myself and you. How Xander how." The girl said crying harder. She palmed her face trying to believe that her most trusted person did this.

Xander stood there stared at her not knowing what to say or do. He gulped before trying to touch her but instead, she pushed his hand away and stepped back.

"M-Mia listen to me. I am sor--" Mia looked at him with sadness all over her teary gaze. Disappointed and loathe were the only emotions she was feeling at that time.

"What. What will you explain Xander? I never thought you can stoop this low. I trusted you, Xander. I trusted you." She said crying letting tears fell from her green eyes. The same eyes he loves the most but now he was the reason behind their sadness.

He again tried grabbing her arms but she stepped back shrugging his touch away. Xander's eyes started shedding tears when she shot him a disgusted look making him visibly flinch with how much hatred she looked at him.

"I am sorry Mia. I don't know what happened to me. I am sorry I am so so sorry. I swear I will make everything right." She chuckled sadly before sitting on the sofa lifelessly.

"There is nothing you can make right now Xander. You destroyed everything. I will never forgive you for this Xander. Never." Xander bit his lip from crying out when she refused to even look at him.

"Get out. Never show me your face again." She mumbled hurting him even more. He tried to say something but flinched away.

"I SAID GET OUT."

Flash Back End

Amelia stopped breathing for some time. Her body was paralysed in shock. He did that. Even if she tries. She could help but to feel an immense disgust for what he did to her.

While Xander was crying. Tears were kept on streaming down his eyes. Till this day he cursed himself for what he did every second. He had redeemed himself a long time ago. But no his heart refused to forgive him.

He refused his mind to forget the sin he had committed. To move on from the damage he caused the one he exclaimed to love. How can he say that he did everything because he loved her?

No. This is not the way you show that you love someone. His acts were nothing but poisonous. He ruined her. He snatched her happiness. But he wasn't ready to let that happen.

"I left from the place. I knew I have committed a grave sin. I wanted to comfort her. But how can I even think that she will find comfort in the same embrace who tormented her." He sobbed hard softening Amelia's eyes.

"But I refused to give up. I wanted to make everything right. I wanted to give her happy life back. I wanted to show her how deeply I was regretting the thing I did. I wanted to return her happiness to her. I couldn't tolerate the burden my heart was feeling after the things I had done. So after almost a week, I gathered Maxim's information. I got his address and went there to explain everything. I wanted to apologize and wanted him to apologize to her. I was ready to give up on everything just to see the same smile on her face again. I also decided to just leave the country after explaining everything to him."