Healing the Ruthless Alpha novel Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Cahir and I mated. Joined forever.

My heart stuttered for a brief second before my world turned bleak. I’d made a mistake – a terrible one.

“What is it?” Asena stretched inside me.

“Asena, what have we done?” I asked my wolf.

I looked down at my hands. They quivered as I held them out. They felt too heavy to be held out – my whole body felt too heavy for me. I felt a tightness in my chest and a sinking in my stomach.

“Sia, what is it?” Asena went alert as my mood continued to plummet.

I should have taken better care. I should have known better. Who would make the mistake of mating with someone they were not sure they wanted to be with? Why would I do something as dangerous and risky as tying myself to a man like Cahir for the rest of my life?

“What have I done?” I whispered to myself. Salty liquid entered my mouth as I whispered to myself.

“Sia –”

I burst into tears. My wolf could not calm me. No matter what she said, I could not and would not be placated.

Cahir Armani was a wicked and ruthless man, the kind most mothers prayed their daughters would never encounter. If I had a mother, she would hold me and cry along with me for the misfortune I willingly walked into. How could I let lust rule over me so fast and so hard?

In Silver Moon, I could entertain thoughts of fleeing the pack and going on to live as a solitary wolf living a modest life but now, I could never live that life. I would forever be by Cahir’s side. My wolf could die if we were separated for too long. If I left, his wolf could connect to mine and find me in a few seconds.

“Sia, we agreed to give him a chance,” Asena reminded me. “The goddess has a reason for pairing us together. Don’t you think judging him without knowing him isn’t the best idea?” She asked.

I could tell she was upset but chose to placate me. Wolves were built to love their mates. Rejecting Kade did a number on Asena and despite both us of agreeing then that he would never make a good mate for us, the rejection almost crippled her. She was tied to Perseus now and would defend him at every chance but I was the human here. My wolf was the strength but it was my place to make the decisions to ensure we lived a good life.

“Sia, he is our mate. He would never hurt us.”

How could Asena forget what this man did to us just days ago? Did he not trade me for a nice deal with Silver Moon? Did he not make me watch as he bargained for my life? I knew that the only reason he mated with me now was to have a healer in his pack, and to use my body as he wished.

I shuddered to think of what would become of me in this pack. How could I survive a man like Cahir? What if he killed me? No, what if he caged me and treated me worse than Silver Moon pack? Then, I would have no escape. In Silver Moon, I had the option of leaving and though it was not much, it gave me a sort of hope – it made me believe I would find light at the end of the dark tunnel which was my stay in that pack.

I had all the time – Kamal and his friends would have let me go, I could have escaped but I allowed myself fall victim to our mate bond. The peace that surrounded me when I stepped into Alpha Blood land lulled my flight senses. I need to –

I heard a knock on the door that made me scramble out of bed. The knock came again and I looked around me, not knowing what to do.

“Why are you acting like a fugitive?” Asena asked when panic choked me. “Tell whoever it is to come in!”

“C – Come in,” I said but it did not feel like my place to tell someone to come in or to go out.

“This is our mate’s room! We belong here!” Asena growled at me.

A petite girl came into the room with a tray while I held the covers to my chest.

“Good afternoon, Luna.” She beamed at me, her smile wide and genuine but freaky. I’d never seen anyone smile with so many teeth before. “I am Maribeth. The Alpha sent me up with your lunch.”