Healing the Ruthless Alpha novel Chapter 51

Chapter 51

I felt suffocated, there was no other way to explain it. Cahir had made me into someone who did not come out of the house- ever. The only time I stepped out of the Alpha Castle was to visit him in the pack house and that happened only once. There was no reason for that. In fact, he called me in for a minute and then sent me away. It felt as if he wanted me to know that my life was in his hand and he could order me around as he liked. That day, Sebastian came with me and he didn’t hide the fact that he was displeased to be guarding me rather than his Alpha.

“Good morning,” Laura said to me as she took the seat opposite me. She had made it a habit to visit me as many times in a day as she could – which was always once or twice as she was busy. She had relevance in this pack while my mate made it clear my only purpose was to do as he said and warm his bed at night!

“I feel trapped, ” I answered Laura’s greeting with a declaration.

All my life, I had never been one to sit still and do nothing. I worked and I worked then I worked some more. That was my reality but now, when I entered the kitchen, I was met with a bombardment of people trying to feed me and the first and only time I asked if I could help them in any way, the kitchen had fallen silent and everyone stared at me with half-opened mouths until I walked with coloured cheeks.

Laura said they didn’t mean to be rude, just surprised that Cahir’s Luna would volunteer to work in a place like the kitchen. I understood their reasoning but the silence that greeted me that day still haunted me.

“Did the Alpha really say you can’t leave the house?” Laura asked and I nodded in response.

He has not said it in so many words but the first time I ever came out of the house, he told me there was no need for me to.

“Did you ask him why?” I shook my head in response. The shame from his words had kept my mouth shut. “When he returns today, you can ask him why. I am sure he has his reasons, or you can even visit him in his office today. I am sure he will appreciate the surprise. ” Laura wiggled her brows with a smile that I didn’t return.

Maybe I didn’t communicate well but she tended to trivialize everything I said about how Cahir made me feel. It made me think I was overreacting or being childish to feel this way because no matter what I said, she always made it seem as if I was reaching or that I did not try hard enough to understand him.

Breakfast with Laura ended on a sour note because I zoned out of the conversation which revolved around Cahir and all the magnificent things he had done after he succeeded Alpha Boston.

That night, I went to sleep in my room. The bed was cold and Asena did not want to sleep alone but I didn’t listen to her. If I shared a room with Cahir, nine times out of ten, we ended up having sex but this night, all I wanted was to be alone with my thoughts.

“I told you to stop using this room.” That voice.

“Leave me alone.” I pressed my face into the bed and put a pillow over my head the second I heard that voice. I knew he would come to find me but I hoped he would allow me the privacy of my room at least once.

“Why did you disobey me?” He pulled the pillow away from my head. I tried to hold on to it but my strength was nothing compared to his.

“I just want to sleep tonight.” I was forced to face him when he lifted me off the bed and placed me on his thighs as he sat.

“You can sleep in my room. I told you to sleep in my room from now on.” His tone caused a shiver to race down my spine. He was getting quieter as he spoke.

“I want to sleep alone. Can’t I have that too?” I asked. Tears stung my eyes before I knew it. He took out a handkerchief from his breast pocket and wiped my tears as they fell.

“Are you uncomfortable sharing a bed with me?” He asked.

That was a problem. I wasn’t uncomfortable sharing a bed with him. The minute he walked into a room, I felt better. All my worries and hatred about how he treated me took s backseat and I became calm. I was so much more comfortable in his bed than in mine but everything now messed with my

senses.

I wanted to have time alone to evaluate how felt. In truth, misery had been my biggest company for the past week and I needed to clear my head. I wasn’t happy. I felt trapped stifled, as if I could not

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