His Rogue Luna novel Chapter 51

"We have a problem here down south. There's been several random feral attacks and I've seen that they have a whole army of them,' she began. I felt my worry spike. "I have enough allies to help and our army is well prepared. I just need another spirit wolf to help me and I thought you'd know what to do,' I understood what she was referring to.

"I understand and I accept. Where shall I meet you?' I asked.

"The Silverclaw Guardians,' I smiled to myself and began making mental preparations for reuniting with my friends once again.

"Done. I'll see you in three days,' And with that, she left my mind and I refocused back into the real world. I blinked for a couple of seconds, noticing Kieran had an arm around my waist and one on the back of my neck, cradling me to him.

He pulled back to look me in the eyes once he realised I had come out of my mind link.

"What is it? What happened?" He asked, worry and concern swimming in his sapphire eyes.

"There's an army of feral's down south and I need to be there," I explained. His eyebrows pulled together as his forehead creased even more.

"That's too dangerous. I can't let you go," he murmured, pulling me back into his chest. While I enjoyed the feeling of his arms around me and his scent all over me, I pulled back from his arms, my own brows furrowing.

"What do you mean I can't go? I didn't ask you Kieran, I was telling you I am going," I stated. "The southern packs already have an alliance and army, it's just that one more spirit wolf is needed," I explained, hoping to lessen his worry to diffuse the tension. I vaguely registered Quin leaving the room to give us privacy.

"A fight Artemis. It's a war," he argued, his voice rising. "With disgusting rabid dogs that have no shred of humanity and no hope of a future," he spat. "How safe can it be?" He asked, incredulous.

"I was a disgusting, rabid dog once!" I yelled, my anger and hurt all making me snap. He flinched back, not expecting me to shout but that didn't stop me. "I grew up without any human interactions, without parents, without love and I became a monster too! I had no shred of humanity and no hope for a future either, but guess what? I'm standing here aren't I? The only difference between me and those ferals you hate so much is that I was given a chance by a kind and understanding woman!" I finished, panting from all the overwhelming emotions.

All the emotions I tried to keep in check, that I had hid by bottling up and ignoring had now exploded out of me, leaving me flustered and lost. The anger, the pain, the fear, all of the the things that I had felt from the moment I first stepped onto this pack's territory to the day I ran away and became a spirit wolf, till this very moment, they all washed over me and nearly drowned me in their intensity.

Once again, I wished that Diana was here. She always knew what to do and how to get me out of my mind. I couldn't do this alone.

I realised that a mate was supposed to be your rock and your strength, the one to help you through your problems, but how could Kieran be that for me when he was the cause of all my turmoil?

I heard voices in the distant, their words slow and jumbled as if they were underwater.

Or maybe, I was underwater.

I really was a disgusting monster.

Maybe he had been right to push me away in the first place. Maybe there is no real hope for ferals. Maybe Diana was wrong about me.

I stifled another sob as another wave of anguish washed over me.

I was being childish, clinging onto the thought of Diana even though she had long passed. I was hypocritical, not taking my own advice by talking to someone about the crushing responsibilities and the worry that was slowly suffocating me.

Instead, I thought I was strong enough to do it all on my own. I pushed myself too far and I had broken down. In front of the people I had promised to protect, the people that would probably lose trust and faith in me all over again.

"Ma'am, maybe we should leave tomorrow night? To get some rest?" Quin spoke up. I didn't look at her as I mumbled out my reply, still lost in my thoughts.

"No. You leave ahead without me, I'll catch up in a bit. I want to run there," I murmured distractedly. She hesitated for second before nodding and leaving with her suitcase. I listened to her soft footsteps as she walked out the pack house and outside into a waiting car. The car quickly drove off, the sound of its engine humming and fading into the distance.