Konstantin: The Heartless Beta novel Chapter 5

Konstantin

How am I going to survive my days with this inept person taking Lily’s place?

I’ve watched him make a fool out of himself for the last few hours, and Lily has had to jump in to save the day as usual. Will I have to whip him into shape when she leaves? Because it looks like he’s in no way ready to be my PA, much less my second in command and most trusted.

I don’t know if it’s the bitterness at her leaving that has put me in this mood, but there is a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, knowing she will no longer be here. She was mine, but then again, she wasn’t. To say that I will miss her is putting it lightly; it already feels like a part of myself is missing.

And now I have to watch as Stefan lusts after her the entire night.

He’s taken a liking to her, I can tell. Who wouldn’t? For the step sister of a Lycan beast, Lily is beautiful, but the worst part is that she doesn’t know this. From the curve of her hips to her full lips, clear blue eyes, perfect athletic body, brunette curls and soft alabaster skin.

She’s been the object of my desire since I first lay my eyes on her.

But I couldn’t betray her trust, and she didn’t deserve my lusting over her like that. She’s always wanted a place where she felt like she belonged, and I gave that to her these last few years. Lily was family; she was given to me to look over and guide.

So why am I feeling like a part of myself is missing? Why is it that when I look at her, it feels like my life has a purpose? What the fuck is this pull I feel in my centre when I look at her, this constant need to claim her as mine when she obviously isn’t?

I know I shouldn’t drown my sorrows in alcohol, but it is the only thing that numbs the pain. Not that I can stay drunk for long anyway - my werewolf genes would never allow my body to feel inebriated for too long.

“Hey, Konstantin?” I hear behind me as I go to get another drink. Zephyr walks over to me, looking extremely nervous. His scent is of burnt wood and cedar, but the anxiety permeates his musky warrior scent.

I nod when I see him and raise my glass towards my lips. “How can I help?”

“I want you to know that I will get better at this. I may not be as good as Lily is right now, but I will devote my life to you and to this pack.” He goes down on one knee and lowers his head. “Please accept my apology for my mistakes tonight, but know that you will not regret making me your second in command.”

I sigh, then slap him on the back and cock my head for him to get up. “Thank you; I do not doubt that Lily chose you because she trusts you. You’re fucking up because all these Alphas here must be putting your senses through Hell, and right now, you’re in 100% fight or flight mode. But rest assured, our Alpha can take all of these men out if they had to storm him all at once. There’s no need to fear them.” I say, even offering him a smile.