Little Brown Benefit novel Chapter 20

"But how could I... when did we... oh my god!" I shouted as I recalled the very last encounter between Christian and myself. It was basically our goodbye sex almost one month ago indeed.

Now, I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant with Christian's baby and he was about to get married to someone else.

I broke into tears once again and sobbed loudly like a lost child. Dr. Ramsey came over and comforted me with tissues and small taps to the back.

"It's going to be okay. You're young and these sort of news are usually shocking at first."

"It's more about the circumstances now. How am I to bring this child into the world without his or hers father in the picture? I can't do this on my own, plus I have a sibling to take care of." I cried.

"Oh, I'm sorry. The dad isn't in the picture?"

"No!" I sobbed louder. "This wasn't meant to happen. He has his own life with someone else."

"There are other alternatives to the problem, Sacha. There's adoption. You can bring this baby into the world and give him or her up for adoption to a family who can't have a baby. Or, you can terminate the pregnancy."

My chest heaved as I weight my options.

If I carry this child, Christian would know, and his fiancee would know and by her reputation, she would destroy me but if I have an abortion, no one would know and I can move on with my life like nothing had happened. But I'll feel so guilty about it. Just terminating an innocent life, a life who didn't even have a chance to see the world.

"I don't know what to do." I said.

"You don't have to decide right now. You can sleep on it, or call the father and decide together what is the best option for this. I'll leave you to it."

I watched as she left the room and I took out my cellphone to call Christian. With every ring, my heart raced faster and faster.

He picked up after the fifth ring.

"Sacha." His voice came and a smile instantly spread across my face. It amazed me how just his voice made my world seemed alright and melted all my troubles away.

"Christian, there's something I need to tell you."

"Now is really not a good time."

"Christian, I need your input on something."

"Sacha, I'm sure you can work it out on your own."

"Why are you talking to me like this, are you not interested in anything I have to say to you anymore, Christian?"

"Look, I really have to go." He hung up without another word.

It was clear now. Christian wanted nothing to do with me.

I looked down at my stomach, knowing what my option is going to be. "I'm so sorry little one. I'm so sorry."

Christian's POV

I turned off my cellphone, avoiding the call distractions. It was the rehearsal dinner. Friends and family had gathered to congratulate Audrey and I, while stuffing their faces with food.

I wasn't happy about being here, but my guilt wouldn't let me leave. I had cheated on Audrey countless times just to accomplish a silly goal I had up with my friends since in high school, but that silly goal led me to a wonderful young woman. A young woman I couldn't get out of my head.

"Wouldn't you agree, Christian?" My mother asked.

"Huh?" I asked, shaking myself from my thoughts.

"To honeymoon in Paris." She answered.

"Umm, yeah, sure, why not?" I was at a lost. My head wasn't in the dinner. Audrey's hand found mine underneath the table. She was sitting right next to me.

"Are you okay?" She asked in a whisper.

"Boss?" I heard a voice. I looked up and saw Josh.

"Josh."

"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"It's my mother. We were having dinner. Something got stuck in her throat, she couldn't breathe, she was spitting up blood." I told him.

"Oh man, that doesn't sound pretty." He said.

"What are you doing here Josh?" I asked him now.

"I came to drop something off for Sacha."

"Sacha?" My eyebrows creased in confusion.

"Yeah. She fainted earlier on today."

"Oh God." I exhaled. I felt even worse. She had been calling me and there was something she had to say to me but I shut her off without hearing her out. She wanted to tell me that she was in the hospital.

"Which room is she in?"

"Female Recovery. Room 09."

"Do you mind giving me a few minutes with her?" I asked him as I stood up.

"Sure. Go right ahead."

I found room 09 and walked in. Indeed, Sacha was on the bed, playing a game in her cellphone. Her eyes popped open wider when she saw me.