Lost in You novel Chapter 83

The remarks surprise me. I look at James in shock, but James is very calm.

He knows it all along!

"How could I not know who she is? Carolina is so familiar to me. I know her every move and every detail. Do you think she can really fool me?" James smiles at Isabel.

I stand behind him with no expression on my face except shock.

Isabel looks at me like a poisonous snake. "My son is so smitten with you. Carolina, you've been waiting a long time for this."

"Yes, I wait for it for a long time." I say. But I still couldn't look James in the eyes. I am afraid of him.

James smiles at me all the time.

“I hate you; I hate you for ruining my family! My father wouldn't have died if it hadn't been for you! Mom wouldn't have killed herself! You killed them! Today is a punishment for you! How's that? Feeling sad? I am ten thousand times sadder than you!" I smile at Isabel with a vindictive smile. I just don't want to make her happy.

"Son, did you see? This is the woman you like, and she is plotting against you and your mother! How can you be with a woman like her? You must wake up from the reality!" Isabel takes James's hand but glares at me. "She and I are absolutely irreconcilable!"

"Mom, you know what you've done," James says with frustration. "Do you think you can still control all this? I'm in charge of the Orlando Group now. I'm not who I used to be." James squeezes Isabel's hand hard and looks back at me.

I look away.

I can see James’s helplessness. There is his mother on the one side, and there is me on the other. However, there is no possibility between James and me.

Porter stays on the side without saying anything. He just gazes at Isabel gently.

I know he loves Isabel, no matter what she has become.

Unlike me and James, our problems are not so easy to deal with.

"Don’t you feel ridiculous by being fooled by such a woman?" Isabel smiles and takes her hand away from James's. "My silly son, you'll regret it one day."

"Let’s wait and see." James says.

"Her or me? You choose it yourself. I won't make her feel any better." Isabel gives me a cold smile.

"Well, me too." I smile back at Isabel's cold smile.

"She made me lose what I want to have, and I will make suffer what I suffer one day." Isabel adjusts her clothes, and continues, “Let’s wait and see.”

What is in sight is a messy wedding. The guests have left, and the groom left in embarrassment.

“I will get back what I want, and revenge for my humiliation of today!” Isabel glares at me and walks slowly out, followed by Porter.

There are only James and me now.

There is nothing I could do about James. I look at him and want to get out of here right away.

"Carolina, how much longer do you want to pretend?" James's voice sounds behind me.

I pause.

“Do you think I'm a fool? How could I not recognize you? You are the woman I love the most in my life. Even if you turn to ashes, I know it is you." James says, gritting his teeth.

I dare not to look back.

"It's ridiculous to think about it now. I didn’t realize that you have recognized me." I smile sadly.

I didn’t know that James has acted with me all the time. He knew it was me but he didn’t reveal my lies. He would even pretend he didn't know it was me.

"What do you mean, Carolina?" James grabs me by the shoulder and makes me look at him.

“Look me in the eye! His eyes are so sharp that make me feel scared. I couldn't help but look back.

"Will you really forget me? Don't you ever miss me? Don’t you feel unreconciled if we are over? We are still in love!" James is yelling, in the empty church, at me, speaking his mind.

"But I can't live without you." He looks at me with pleading.

I look down and try to push James's hand away, but I couldn't get it off.

I feel my heart broken, but what can I do?

"You kill my father, and your mother will not accept me, and won’t bless us. Maybe when one of us dies, it will have an end. You ask me to be with you? Do you think that's possible? Don't be naive." I sneer.

In fact, I have fantasized about the scenes with him for countless times. Ella, James and I are a happy family, but this is just a fantasy.

James despairs, but then he looks horrible and looks at me darkly. "There is no end between you and me."

“No. There is no future between us. Being together is a waste of time. Don’t pester me! You have a fiancé, and you're getting married soon." I could not help feeling jealous.

James smiles, "You care about me."

"Whatever." I don't want to tangle with him. I just want to leave as soon as possible.

James looks at me crazily, as if threatening me, "Who is Ella’s father? I'll know it soon. Although you changed her date of birth, you can’t change her gene.”

“What do you want to do? I look at him warily.