My Rockstar's Heartstrings: Three Years of Loving You From Afar novel Chapter 15

Jax's Perspective

For three years after their breakup, Jax couldn't think about Kaylee without feeling like punching a wall.

He tortured himself imagining her with some loaded husband, probably with a kid or two by now. Someone as money-obsessed as her was probably living her best life, counting cash and living in luxury.

Every time these thoughts hit him, he felt like he was spiraling.

He'd created a particularly unflattering mental image of Kaylee's husband—definitely old, balding with a beer gut, nothing going for him except his bank account. The type who'd flash designer goods on a first date to trap a young woman.

Wait—if the guy was that much older... wouldn't he kick the bucket sooner?

This thought instantly lifted Jax's mood.

He convinced himself he'd get another shot with Kaylee.

With this goal in mind, he got himself into a routine. His most consistent daily activity? Hitting the gym.

If they ever got back together, he'd definitely make her compare—him versus her husband.

His mother and everyone around him called him immature. He couldn't give less of a damn.

If being loyal, faithful, and loving only one person made him immature, then he'd stay immature forever.

Besides, Kaylee truly was irreplaceable.

Jax had played out countless reunion scenarios in his head, but never imagined finding her at a night market.

There she was, selling street food, dark circles under her eyes, clearly running on empty.

What the hell?

Hadn't she married some rich dude? Why was she hustling like this?

Jax's gut reaction was to approach her, but he caught himself.

Knowing Kaylee, if he showed up offering cash or a job, she'd tell him where to shove it.

So he had no choice but to rope in Selena.

Selena was different from other actresses. While most female celebrities fell over themselves for Jax, Selena couldn't care less about him, focusing entirely on her career.

That's why he could actually have real conversations with her.

Around that time, Selena's manager was floating the idea of a publicity relationship with his team, something he'd always shut down.

But when he thought about making Kaylee jealous... Jax was suddenly all in.

Selena brought Kaylee onto her team.

Jax pressured Selena to pay Kaylee ten times the normal salary, with him footing the bill.

Selena rolled her eyes so hard they nearly fell out: "Jax, do you think everyone's like you, completely disconnected from the reality of money?"

"Ten times normal pay? Kaylee would think it's a freaking scam! No one in their right mind would take that job!"

Later, paparazzi constantly caught Jax "visiting" Selena.

In reality, he was always there for Kaylee intel—

Was she really married?

Was she doing okay?

Why did she look so thin?

Selena got so fed up she finally snapped: "Jax, the internet thinks I'm into you.

"All day it's Kaylee this, Kaylee that—you literally talk about nothing else.

"I've got the face, the body, guys who'd cross continents for a date with me. If I ever fell for someone who's clearly obsessed with another woman, check me into a psych ward."

Jax couldn't care less.

Whether Selena liked him or not was completely irrelevant.

All that mattered was the slightest chance that Kaylee might still feel something for him.

He sent food to Selena's team daily, driving her insane.

"I've told you I'm counting macros! Stop sending pastries!"

"They're not for you."

Jax always ordered from the high-end bakery Kaylee used to stare at through windows.

Years ago, she'd press her face against the glass, saying, "Look at those cakes—they look incredible, but twenty bucks for a slice that size? That's straight-up robbery!"

So he bought every flavor, sending them over daily through his assistant.

She finished the raspberry one.

Barely touched the chocolate.

Told a coworker the pistachio was to die for.