Night Rider MC novel Chapter 12

I was leaning against the tree watching the water flowing in the creek. I had never been so unhappy. I was strong. Now, now I feel so weak. I thought my family love me.

Ace hurt me the most. My other brothers just sat and looked at me with sad eyes. I know that I was never close to them. But, Ace, how could he let this happen to me? Not one of my brothers said they wanted to go after this Raven.

I sat crying, letting the tears fall. I heard Ripper telling me that he didn't hate me. But, after what Raven did, how could he even look at me? He did make Ace leave me alone. But, I lost it.

When my own brother touched me I hated it. I hated the smell of his cologne. I had to wash his touch off me. I would have drowned my nose in water to get that scent out of it. But, I couldn't do that.

I can still smell him, still feel his hand on my arm. I did not realize that I was rubbing my arm. I need a bath. I need to get rid of Ace and Raven's touch.

I stood up and ran through the woods back to my apartment. I ran pass Grace into the door and into my bedroom. I stripped my clothes and climbed into the shower. I started to scrub myself.

I slid down the wall of the tub crying. I cried because that son of a bitch took what was not his to take. I promised that on they man loved me and married me would have my virginity. I wanted that man to be Ripper. Now that will never happen. I am un-pure. He will not be the only man to touch me.

The pain, I remember the pain. If that is what sex is like, I don't want any part of it. I heard my name being called. I had not realized the water had grown cold or that I was shivering.

I looked up to see Grace turning the water off and wrap a towel around me. "Star, lets get you dried off and dressed in warm clothes.

I let her stand me up and dry me off. I just stood there as she dressed me. "Star, I want to help you but I don't know how."

"Not unless you talk to me."

"Grace, I am not pure anymore."

"No good man will ever want me now."

"I won't become a wife or a mother."

"Star, that is not true."

"Really, will Ripper still want me when he finds out what that man did to me?"

"I don't think so." I said crying again.

"Come on Star. Lie down and I will bring you a cup of coffee."

"I will watch some TV with you, alright."

I climbed into bed and leaned against the headboard. I looked up as Grace came in with a cup of coffee for both of us. I looked over as Grace sat in the chair and turned on the TV. We watched a few show before I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

I looked over and saw that Star was finally sleeping. I picked up the cups and carried them to the kitchen. I rinsed them and put them in the drainer. I than picked up my phone and dialed Gunner.

"How is she Grace?"

"Not good.

"She is depressed and crying."

"She thinks Ripper will want nothing to do with her now that she lost her virginity."

"That is not true Grace."

"I know that Gunner. But she doesn't."

"She thinks that no good man will want her now. She thinks she will never be a wife or mother. After what he did to her."

"Grace, I am going to talk to Ripper. Find out how he really feels about Star. Then I will let him know what she thinks."

"Gunner, he didn't kill Ace did he?"