Only Mine novel Chapter 28

16 months later...

Shit. This is not what we planned for. Shit shit shit. What if it'll be too soon for him?

The stick in my hand with a bright pink on it was staring back at me, almost mockingly and I knew I should start freaking out, because no matter how good and loving relationship we had with Jake these past months, a child was not something we really discussed yet. For god sake, I didn't even agree to marry him yet even though he has been asking for the past year. Not that I'm not sure about us. We are good as we are, perfect actually. Why go out there, get married and put some invisible pressure on us? It's not worth it. We will do it when the time is right. But what if now this, this small little pink makes him run again? No, no, no. I need to give him more credit. He gave me no reason to doubt his love since I saw him that day at Becca's wedding. We were good together. We are good together. It will be fine. There is no other possibility really.

So, time to put big-girl panties on, because Jessy-girl dear, you are going to be a mum. Oh my god. A stupidly happy grin spread on my face, regardless of my heart trying to jump out of my chest from the nerves. I'm going to be a mum.

I took a deep breath before opening the doors to the bathroom and walking to our living room where Jake was lounging on the couch.

"So, babe, do you want to continue watching Blindspot or do we check for some good movies?"

He didn't turn around while asking and kept on browsing on the TV for a movie to see. That's why he didn't see that I was nervous as hell.

Here goes nothing...

"I know about a good movie we could watch."

"Oh, yeah? What's the title?"

"It's called: 'Would you prefer a girl or a boy?'"

"Really?? That's a strange title."

God, guys can be so clueless sometimes. Finally, he turns around while saying, "Are you sure that's the title? Is it about..."

And then his eyes go wide, looking at me with shocking question marks in his eyes. I gave him a small nod and he just about jumped over the couch and grabbed me for my shoulders.

"Jess?? Are you saying... are you..." Looking down at my belly with round eyes before gulping loudly and looking back at my eyes.

"Are you pregnant?"

"Mhm, Jake. I know we haven't planned for it. I don't really know how it happened, but it did. I understand if you are not ready for it, because I'm scared also, but..."

I don't think I was breathing the entire time before he finally stopped me. His hand shoots to cup my cheek tenderly and his eyes were becoming glassy.

"What are you talking about? Babe, this is our baby. No matter how it happened, you couldn't have made me fucking happier. Fuck, I am going to be a father."

I already started crying at that point and he kissed my tears away, then caressing both of my cheeks with the biggest grin on his face.

"Thank god. I was afraid you... never mind. We are going to be parents. I love you, Jake, so much."

And then his grin disappeared and a deep frown replaced it.

"Get dressed. Now. Quickly. Put on something white. We need to go."