Ours novel Chapter 50

Nala POV

It's been two weeks since we started college, it's been pure hell. I can't tell my mates that I hate it. I hardly talk to anyone, even jenny been distant lately she hardly talks to me anymore.

She missed a full week of college , i don't even know why, she wouldn't tell me and i didn't push her.

I don't know what's wrong with my friend but somehow she's as miserable as me.

My mates are trying to talk to me, but I don't wanna talk, I'm sleeping alone most nights. Well I hardly sleep I lay down at night and stare at the ceiling.

I'm still not eating, i don't feel like eating food, Jace keeps trying to feed me but i refuse everything.

Christian tried going all alpha on me so i would talk or eat but i only break down to tears.

Stefan said my physical check-up showed that nothing is wrong with me , well shocker cause i feel like death.

The twins are both trying to make me laugh, trying to make it up for me, Kyle been dressing me in more colorful clothes, I wear them for him. Kane trying his hardest to be strong for me.

Aidan, sometimes Aidan will take me out and sit with me, we'll both sit in silence.

My heart hurt and ache. I can hardly breathe, I'm feeling lonely for the first time in almost a year. Maybe I should talk to them, but I don't know how to say what's wrong with me, I don't even know what's wrong with me.

It's almost 2 am, i can't breath , i feel like the walls are closing in , i feel like I'm drowning. I get out of bed and run downstairs I see Christian looking at me from his office, i don't look back even i keep running outside. I need to be out, I can't take this anymore.

I run outside and change to wolf. I let out a long wad howl, I put all my heartbreak into it. I can hear the rest of my pack, they are howling back with me in compassion, their luna is hurt they can feel it. I can feel other presence with me , i look around to see all seven of my mates. I start running, i run to escape my hurt, i run to escape the pain, i run cause i can't tolerate this anymore.