Pregnant I left him To His First Love novel Chapter 157

Tatum’s lips quiver, unable to utter a word as they both stare at each other. Leila’s eyes full of pain and rage, Tatum’s eyes full of pain and regret.

“The guilt of my choice has been my companion for a long time and I reckon it will be for the rest of my life, I don’t deserve your forgiveness, I know, but back then, there was nothing I could do, I didn’t know how to weave my way around the law.”

Rage boils inside of Leila.

Even now he doesn’t see any wrong with his actions, standing behind the law, manipulating and using it to his cruel end.

Has he always been this vile? What sort of a cruel monster tries to kill his own innocent child and labels it justice?

He is never going near Amara again, ever.

“Damn you and damn your fucking law,” she spits out with venom. “I want to see how you protect Carmela with it when I come for her because I’m going to hit her so bad, slowly peel back every layer of deceit that she has wrapped around your eyes and that of your pack members and just when you feel truly remorseful, when you know the real truth, when you feel deep in your heart and soul that you have amends to make, then I’ll come for you.”

The regret in Tatum’s eyes doubles over and he drops his head, staring at his feet for seconds like they hold the solution to all his problems, a remedy to the ache in his heart.

“Leila…” he reaches for Leila as he looks back up but she yanks her hands away, her eyes cold as frost.

Tatum stares at the hand he was about to touch her with, a deep sense of loss filling him, sadness blazing in his grey eyes. He clenches the fist slowly before he opens and runs it down his face as a defeated sigh escapes him.

He’ll give anything to hold her again, anything to feel her touch, to see her smile at him but what right does he have to expect or demand it?

“I know how you feel Leila and–”

Leila scoffs and bursts out in laughter, but it is not amusement behind it, it is disbelief birthed by her pain.

“You know how I feel? Did you really just say you know how I feel? You don’t know the half of it. My bump was visible, your pack members knew I was pregnant, the alpha’s child and yet they beat me with my pregnancy like a common criminal.

“I was fed on by rats, starved for days, poisoned and tortured with your child in me, as your Luna and your wife, what do you think I felt? Oh you don’t know how I feel Tatum but I promise you, when I’m done, you’re going to, because I’m going to come at you with everything that I have, you can count on it.”

Tatum looks wryly at her, a look of foreboding acceptance covering his eyes. “I will,” he says, “I just want you and your family safe while you are here, all of you. Can you at least let me do that, keep you safe?”