She Is Too Good For Someone Like Him novel Chapter 7

Bella was up and walking with a walking cast. She had two months off from work so she decided to go stay at her cabin. She sat down and wrote letters to Steve and her brother and friends. Writing letters telling them she was going away for two months but would return to see the doc to see if she can start back to work.

Wolf stood watching Bella moving around in her house. He couldn't figure out what she was doing until she put some letters in envelopes and left them on her desk. He watched as she stood up and then she picked something up. He saw her walking down the stairs carrying suitcases. He watched with longing as she walked off the porch and opened the back of her trailblazer and started loading the back. She then shut the door and got in and drove away.

His heart was breaking. He fucked up and he knew it. She had built walls up around her before he met her. He had got her to trust him to lower those walls. He could tell they were back up wrapped around her even tighter than before. She didn't smile her face was set firm and in place as if no one was ever going to get close enough to her again.

Never let anyone get close to her again let alone a man who might want to make her his. She was determined that no feelings be shown. The large organ in the middle of her chest that used to beat with excitement and love for life had shriveled down to nothing, barely able to pump the blood through her ever-constricting veins. With each moment that passed, life was sucked further from her because of me. I could see that she became obsessed with only one thing... survival.

As I drove down the highway getting further away from my brother's and friends I was thinking. I knew if I were to survive, and that if any of my other senses or thoughts were to return to normal, I would have to let my heart recover. I would have to let it feel safe for as long as it took.

I would have to give it room to do its job, the ability to regenerate, and the safety it so blatantly and repeatedly told me it required. So, I had started to build a wall around my heart. Oh, who am I kidding? I built a ten-foot thick, fifty-foot tall fortress around it with no way in and no way out. I then added that treacherous moat, ready to push any person that dared try to cross it.

I feel more secure now. There would be no love for me. There would be no loving. And I would be... safe. No man to ever hurt me again. To cheat on me, to lie to me or to break my heart. For two months I stayed at my cabin within my fortress, keeping watch in all directions for potential divergence. I learned to keep everybody, and I mean everybody at bay while I stayed there.

Nobody was getting in. Nobody was getting out. And I would continue to be... safe. I was making sure that I would not ever go through what I had been through again. Ever. I often looked down at my guarded heart in those days and thought, I have been preparing myself to return home back to my job, brothers, and friends.

I was preparing to see Wolf again since I would have to attend parties at the clubhouse. I made sure to never show emotions but to laugh and smile and make everyone think I was ok now, That I had gotten over Wolf. Which I have. But I was also making sure that no other man would break through my walls. Never hurt me again. Keep my heart safe. live alone.

Bella arrived in Kentucky and stopped at the store before going to her cabin. She bought enough food to last for three weeks. She put the groceries in the trailblazer and drove to the cabin where she unloaded everything. She started putting her groceries away first then started a pot of coffee while she unpacked and put her clothes away.

Once that was done she poured a cup of coffee turned on her radio and walked out and sat in a rocking chair on her porch. She laid her cell phone on the table next to the chair. She heard it going off and saw that she had over 25 text messages. She ignored them and drank her coffee and rocked thinking about how she had to show no real emotions.

Never show tears, never show she cares. Learn to grin and smile at her friends and family but never, never show real emotions. Never ask for help but give help to friends. Never show weakness ever. And, never, never, ever let another man get close enough to me again. No dating, no dancing with any man, not even my brothers. Never give in and never trust them period.

After preparing myself self I picked up my phone and called Faith back. You called I asked not putting any emotion in my voice. Faith said yes I have called about 5 times. Where the hell are you? I am not telling. Did you get my letter? Yes, we all got your letter and I must say. Wolf was not expecting the one he received.