Tears Of A Wife novel Chapter 23

"Do you have a relationship with that attorney?" he asked.

My forehead creased. "Why do you keep on pulling that thing, Atlas? Can't you see that I don't want to talk to you? I don't have a relationship with Kraius so get out of here!" I roared.

My heartbeat thumped faster as I felt my head hurt. I instantly massaged my temple and slowly sat down on the chair I was sitting at earlier. I closed my eyes shut. I felt dizzy all of a sudden.

"Close the door after you leave," I reminded.

"Fuck!" he cursed. "You'll regret it if you do this again, Olive. You know very well how I get angry," he threatened.

I heard a thud but I didn't spare my time checking it. After a while, I heard Atlas' strides. I sighed as I heard the door open and close. That was the only time I let my eyes open again.

I calmed myself down. I tried to get up and took my towel. I headed towards the bathroom and soaked myself in the shower for a long time. As if it could erase all of Atlas' belittlement. I scrubbed myself to at least lessen the pity I felt for myself.

But I still failed. I thought it was done, but my tears streamed down together with the water from the shower that cascaded down my body. With the soft sounds of the water were my muffled cries.

I guess there are things that would give reason for a person to wake up to reality. There are occurrences that will come to open our eyes towards the truth.

I've been aware for a long time but I chose to be blind. I've been hurting myself for so long that I forgot my worth. I've been loving a man who killed my self respect. I've been very unfair for the last ten years because of loving him.

I guess it's time for me to choose myself. To bring back the old me. To free myself and to be happy without any worries and uncertainties. Because I felt like my body is alive but my heart has been long dead and buried.

It gave up on Atlas.

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For the past years I have felt immense sadness everytime Christmas is celebrated, but right now, the sadness has doubled. This is probably the gloomiest Christmas for me. I have been silently crying for the past few days, secluding myself inside my room to ponder on things that I'm supposed to do.

"Olive! You've been zoning out since earlier. Is there a problem, dear?"