The Alpha Chose Me novel Chapter 83

I lay in bed the full weekend. My phone was off and I made sure Carter didn't let anyone in. I didn't want to face them.

I didn't want to face him.

It was Sunday evening and I had moved from my bed to the couch. Stuffing my face with pizza and hot Cheetos, binge watching the vampire diaries.

"You have to face him at some point bear".

"No I don't".

"Bear-...".

"I need you to be on my side right now Carter. I don't want to talk to him".

"I'm always on your side Leah but he's not going to go away".

"Don't care". I could feel his eyes burning into the side of my head. Never once did I look away from the TV. Jake was the last thing on my mind.

"Hear him out".

"Absolutely not". I glared. "I don't care what he has to say". I couldn't speak to him even if I wanted to. I was too angry. Friday night still fresh on my mind.

That girls hands on him.

The way he was caressing her body.

It made me sick.

"You don't have to stay with me". I shoved a slice of pizza in my mouth. "I'm sure you've got things to do".

"And leave you here in this state?". He shook his head. "This isn't you Leah".

"Yes it is".

"You're being ridiculous. Look how badly he's got to you. You haven't showered in days, your makeup is smudged all over your face and-...".

"Maybe I just can't be bothered okay. Maybe I don't want to shower or clean myself up. Maybe I just want to lay here and be sad. Have you ever thought about that?". I bit back my tears.

"I don't like seeing you like this".

"Yeah well you have your Alpha to thank for that". I wiped my eyes pushing the pizza box to the side.

"He's really fucked it hasn't he?".

"You think?".

"I'm sorry bear. You don't deserve this".

"You're right I don't. I was ready to give myself to him. I had planned my life around him and for what?". I leaned over grabbing my laptop. Maybe I still had time to send my application form. "For him to embarrass me. How am I to gain the respect of the pack if their own Alpha doesn't respect me".

"Word is no one is talking to him".

"I highly doubt that. All the little bitches will be trying to snake their way in". I wasn't upset anymore, the angry cursing through my body at the thought of Jessica or Sarah trying to console him.

He didn't deserve shit.

"So you're going to reject him?".

"Yes". I opened up my laptop bringing up google search.

"Remember he's not the only one that will suffer when you do. You're meant to be together, the bond will effect you as well".

"Yeah well the best way to get over someone is by getting under someone else".

"Bear". Carter glared. "Don't fucking talk like that".

Shrugging I typed Yale into Google. Maybe I could submit my application online. I didn't have a scanner to send it to my laptop so I couldn't attach the one I had already filled out.

"All I'm asking is that you think before you make any decisions".

"I don't need to think". As long as I kept avoiding him I would be fine. I wouldn't let him get inside my head. He wasn't getting to change my mind.

"I hope you know what you're getting getting yourself into. He won't stop Leah".

"Yeah well he has no one to blame but himself".

"Don't say I didn't warn you".

"I won't".

"I'm going out for a bit. Will you be okay?".

"I'll be fine".

.....

I showered.

I cried, my eyes red and puffy.

I got angry and then I cried some more.

"Fuck your Jake Taylor". Turning the shower off I wrapped the towel around my body. I sulked for 2 days, I wasn't sulking anymore.

I wasn't crying over him anymore.

He didn't deserve my tears.

Walking back to my room you could imagine my face when I saw Rylee sitting by my window.

"I don't want to see anyone". I rummaged through my drawers for some clean pjs.

"I kind of gathered that when your phone kept going straight to voicemail".

"And yet here you are”.

"Ouch".

"Sorry". I sighed. It wasn't Rylee's fault that her brother couldn't control himself. What I wanted to know though is why her, why that girl.

"You're fine gal. You have every right to be a bitch. I know it's stupid but how you doing?".

"Better. Should have seen me Saturday morning". I smiled.

"Have you spoke to him?".

"No and I don't plan on speaking to him anytime soon". Hopefully I wouldn't need to. If I get accepted to Yale I'd be away for fall next year.

It was almost a year away but I could keep myself busy. Maybe even move out there once I graduate. Find a place of my own and start a new.

“I haven’t seen him like this before”.

“We both know he’s a slag. How many girls did you have to throw out at weekends. I’m surprised he’s lasted this long. Maybe she wasn’t the first. He doesn’t want me, he doesn’t respect me so why should I care”.

“Hey I’m on your side but he is still my brother”.

Drying myself off I about turned slipping my pj shorts on before I dropped the towel. Pulling the shirt over my head I faced her. “What do you want me to say Rylee?”.

“It’s sad that it’s came down to this. He’s lost the best thing he’ll ever have”. She pulled out her phone.

“Yes and he’s to blame. I have no part in this, I’m not at fault here”.

“Can you at least talk to him?”. She was typing away on her phone. “Even let him explain”.

“Has West arrived yet?”. That caught her attention, her head snapping up in my direction.

“He’s staying at my moms”.

“Why haven’t you accepted him?”. Why didn’t she want to be mated?

Her features changed, her frown evident. “Because he did to me what Jake did to you. Only he did much worse. I was young, I was fourteen when I first met him”.

“So the whole giving up your freedom was bullshit?”. I asked.

“I’ll try”.

“My moms asking to see you. Can I tell her you’ll drop by tomorrow?”.

“I don’t know Rylee”. I don’t think I could handle his mom if she were to get upset.

“She missed you at dinner today”.

“You’re making me feel really bad”.

“I’m sorry just take the time you need but remember we’re family now. Don’t be a stranger”.

As soon as Rylee left I locked the doors and went straight to bed. Tomorrow was another day. The only good thing being my gran coming home.

…….

It was hot, too hot.

Blinking my eyes open I froze at the weight of his arm wrapped around my waist. I was snug against him, my back to his chest.

No!

Was I dreaming?

No he wasn’t getting to do this. Removing his arm from my waist I turned around nudging his shoulder. He wasn’t staying here. I didn’t want him here.

How did he get in?

A groan fell from his lips his arm searching the bed for me. I moved so fast I almost fell over my feet. He wasn’t getting away with this so easily. I wasn’t just going to forgive him.

“I know you’re awake”. I crossed my arms over my chest.

“Get back in this bed now”. He grumbled.

“Get out of my house Jake. You shouldn’t be here”. I hissed.

“You want me here princess”.

“I’m serious Jake. Get out of my house now”.

His eyes snapped open, he moved so fast, his hands firmly gripping my hips. I swallowed the lump that had appeared in my throat. I didn’t want to see him.

“Please leave”. I whispered turning my head so I didn’t have to look at him.

“Not until we sort this and fucking look at me when I’m talking to you”.

I grit my teeth. How dare he think this was okay? Turning my head my eyes locked with his. “There’s nothing to fix especially not tonight. I need for you to leave”.

How could he still act like this when he was the one that was in the wrong. He didn’t have a right to be angry. “Just leave me alone please. I can’t bare to be near you right now”. It was to much. I didn’t realise how I would feel around him. It was unbearable and I was finding it hard to stay mad at him.

“Babe-…”.

“Please it’s all I ask”. I chewed the inside of my cheek begging myself not to cry.

“I’m so sorry baby”.

“Please just go”. I moved slightly putting some space between us. I couldn’t look at him any longer. Turning my back on him the tears fell from my eyes.

“Baby”…

“Please”. I couldn’t hold it in any longer. A sob fell from my lips, my body shaking.

“I don’t want to leave you like this”. He whispered.

“I-Im fine”. I croaked. “Just leave, get out”. Still I couldn’t bring myself to look at him.

He left and as soon as he did a cry fell from my lips. I hated that he did this to me. He broke the trust that we had and for what a quick fix?

Crawling into bed I wrapped my covers up and around my neck. My heart hurt, my body hurt and I was physically and emotionally drained.

Jake Taylor had broke my heart.