The Alpha Chose Me novel Chapter 84

10 days, 10 days had past and I hadn't spoke to him.

I knew he was watching, I knew he was there. I was becoming agitated, the full moon was close and that bloody moon goddess wasn't letting me forget.

I hadn't been to school this past week. I was vomiting, having dizzy spells and let's not forget the fever dreams.

My body was aching with need. My emotions on high alert. One minute I was crying the next I was acting like a crazy person. I was feeling the effects sooner than I thought.

I was loosing my will power with every day that passed. He was respecting my boundaries, doing what I asked but in his own way.

He knew I was close to giving in.

I was fighting as hard as I could.

I hadn't heard anything back from Yale and I had yet to face Mr Gallagher after that dreaded night. I had took it upon myself and against the doctors orders to drive.

You would have loved to have seen my grans face when I told her. My hand was healing fine, and my car was automatic so it wasn't that hard.

I had been up since 6. I couldn't stop the fevers, every piece of night clothing I had ruined with sweat.

"What if something happens?". My gran asked.

"I'll be fine I promise".

"I don't want you driving until your hand is properly healed".

"Then how am I meant to get to school?".

"You call Jake".

I rolled my eyes. Not this again. She was furious when I told her but still thought I should give him the chance to explain.

'Mates are mates Leah, we can't get out of it' her words ringing in my ears.

"I'll be fine. I'll see you when I finish and remember and take your meds". I closed the door behind me my heart hammering in my chest when I saw him.

He was playing around on the road with a football, Jack was there but I didn't recognise the other guy. Maybe West.

He wasn't wearing a T-shirt.

I couldn't stop staring.

The ache forming between my legs.

Swallowing the lump in my throat I sunk my teeth into my bottom lip. Sweet baby Jesus. How the hell was I going to get through this.

Our eyes locked.

That fucking smirk! He knew exactly what he was doing but I wasn't giving up. No matter how much I was suffering without him.

He threw the ball to Jack taking a step in my direction. I shook my head. I still wasn't ready to deal with what he did. I didn't want to know the reason or excuse he was going to give me.

I just wasn't ready to listen.

I didn't want to forgive him just yet. Maybe I never will. The smirk fell from his face, I had to get out of here before I did what he wanted.

I was already finding it hard enough, seeing him made it worse. I wish I could explain the feeling, the natural pull for me to go to him.

Blinking a few times I took a deep breath unlocking my car and getting in. Not seeing him was helping but it didn't do anything for the need or the want.

...

I stopped off at Starbucks on the way to school. Driving wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be. I was currently sitting in the school parking lot waiting on Alanna.

I texted her earlier to see if she was coming in today. I felt bad for not texting her back over the last week. I didn't want to talk to anyone. More of less I didn't want to hear the pity in her voice.

Jake's mom was another one. Dozens of messages and I hadn't replied to one of them. They weren't to blame of course they weren't but I still didn't have the courage to face them.

Jake was the only one responsible for his actions.

Taking a sip of my coffee I smiled when I saw her car. She pulled in next to me cutting her engine. Rolling down my window I watched as she jumped from her car into mine.

"Hey girl".

"Got you some coffee". I smiled.

"Thanks. My moms been asking for you. Please go and see her".

"I don't know if I can. I feel so guilty".

"Why?". She frowned. "You did nothing wrong. My mom is on your side. You should have seen her when she found out".

"I don't want to talk about that night". I hated the way my skin crawled every time I thought about that girl. Her hands on him.

"She just wants to know you're doing okay. You're family Leah. Regardless of what my prick of a brother has done".

"I know but I'm struggling enough as it is. Those damn fever dreams. I've never experienced anything like it".

She laughed. "I didn't experience that because we mated right away-...".

"Good thing I didn't isn't it". I cut her off. "Sorry". I sighed. "I didn't think I was angry anymore but the more I think about what he's done and how he could so easily do it the more riled up I get. How could he do that to me?".

"There isn't an excuse for what he did. I just hope that maybe you'll forgive him in the end".

"I'm far from forgiving him Alanna. He ruined what trust I had in him".

"Just prepare yourself".

"For what?". I asked.

"For what's about to come. He hasn't been near you in almost 2 weeks. He's already starting to show how much it's effecting him".

"Can we not talk about him please?". It wasn't helping how I was feeling. I had so many mixed emotions.

"Just saying". She opened the door. "Be careful because he's not going to give up".

"Yeah I know".

...

I was sat in English. Mr Gallagher hadn't even looked my way. All I got was a simple nod and a reminder that I still had two weeks of detention.

I couldn't concentrate on anything that he was saying. My skin felt like it was on fire.

"In order to pass this class you still need to sit your final exam. You'll get your assignments back at the end of the week".

"So we all passed sir?". Trevor asked

"Barely". He smirked. "But yes you all passed. Some better than others mind you".

"Thank god for that". Abby sighed. "I struggled with that one".

"Same. I'm not sure I done enough".

"I'm sure you did". She smiled. "Can I ask you something?".

"Yeah".

"Are you still involved with Jake Taylor?".

"Involved?". I laughed. "That makes me sound old but no I'm not. How come?". I had a feeling she had heard what happened.

"I heard something but-...".

"Settle down everyone". Mr Gallagher interrupted. "Although your assignment is finished it doesn't mean there isn't work to do". He glanced my way. "Your final exam isn't that far away".

"What did you hear?". I whispered.

"And I'm sure". His voice got louder. "No one wants to fail. I'm going to pass out a short story that was wrote by a friend of mine. I want you to tell me what they could have done better or if you would have changed anything". He passed them to the people in the front row so they could pass them back.

"Abby?".

"That he was with something else". She whispered.

Even though I already knew the truth it still hurt to hear it coming from someone else. If she knew how many other people knew?

Heading towards the cafeteria I cursed when I saw Mr Gallagher standing at the coffee machine. God give me strength today because I was not in the mood.

"Miss Wilson".

"Sir". I nodded.

"I hope you're not skipping?". He said a hint of a smile playing on his lips.

"Free period". I inserted some money pushing for a cappuccino.

"I see. After school come by my classroom and I'll sort you out with some jobs to do".

"Right detention". I sighed picking up my coffee.

"Are you alright?". He asked.

"Fine. I'll catch you later". I headed towards the library and found a seat in the back away from everyone. Taking out my chemistry books I opened my notepad. I was feeling more confident about the class now. I was finally starting to take it in.

"There she is". Ryan grinned taking the seat beside me.

"Haven't you got class?". I asked.

"Came to see my favourite girl". He placed a pack of twizzlers on the table sliding them to me.

"For me?". I teased opening them up and taking one.

"You good?".

"I've been better". I smiled.

"You wanna skip, I'll take you for a burger?".

"I can't". I sighed.

"How about we do something tonight then?".

"I'd like that". It's not as if I was doing anything anyway. "I might even let you drive my car".

"I knew it was yours when I drove in this morning". He grinned. "Let me have a shot at the beast".

Shaking my head I rolled my eyes. "It's a date. Now how come you're not in class?".

"I am Ms Graham thinks I'm at the toilet". He laughed.

"You better get back before you end up with detention".

“I’m going, I just wanted to make sure you were okay. When you didn’t answer any of my texts or calls I got worried”.

“I didn’t turn my phone on for 3 days and then I got sick”.

“You know you deserve better right?”.

“Ryan”…

“Just saying shorty. You’re a fucking knockout and that piece of shit doesn’t deserve you”.

“Maybe”. I shrugged. “But I don’t want to talk about it”.

“I thought he was a good guy, I literally put him on a fucking pedestal and he goes and shits on my best friend”.

“Please stop”. I whispered.

“Still got feelings?”.

“It’s hard to explain”. I wish I could tell him why I still had feelings. Those feelings were never going to go away.

“You still deserve better but what do I know. I gotta get back. I’ll drive over for 7 tonight but we’re definitely taking your car”.

“Okay, I’ll see you tonight”.

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