The Alpha Chose Me novel Chapter 85

I was still sat in the library even after the bell had went. I didn't want to go to maths, I didn't want to be here.

My mood had went from I've got this and I can do this to get me out of here in the space of a morning. He had no right to show up here like that and what makes it worse is having Mr Gregg agree to it.

He had everyone in his corner.

Packing away my stuff a coffee was placed next to me. Rocco taking the seat across from me.

"No sugar this time I promise".

He's another one I couldn't deal with today.

"Look I'm not in the mood for your bullshit today so can we please not". I pushed out my chair getting to my feet.

"Wow". He held his hands up. "I came to apologise about the other week. I shouldn't have said what I did".

"No you shouldn't have. I have to get to class". I placed my bag over my shoulder ready to leave.

"I really am sorry Leah. I don't want to cause trouble with you or him".

"It's fine". I sighed slumping back into the chair. "It's not even noon and I can't be bothered with the rest of today". Taking a sip of the coffee he bought me I rubbed at my eyes. "I leave here in less than a month and do you know what, what's the point in actually finishing".

"I thought you were determined to graduate?".

"What for?" I huffed. "I didn't apply to any university around here and it's to late now". I didn't mention Yale because I still hadn't heard back. 

"Study from home". He shrugged. "You can do online courses and still walk away with a few degrees under your belt".

He was talking sense for once but that's not what I wanted. I didn't apply to university for Jake's sake not mine and now I'm going to be stuck here.

"Can I ask you something and promise you won't go off on one?".

I pursed my lips. "If it's what I think it is then no. It's not something I want to talk about and not being rude but it's none of your business, in fact it's no one's business but mine".

"Fair enough". He nodded. "So we cool?".

"We're cool so long as you keep your opinions to yourself".

"I promise". He smirked.

Rolling my eyes I bit back my smile. Okay so maybe he wasn't all bad. He did apologise after all. "I better get to class". My phone vibrated, I didn't need to look to see who was calling.

"See you around beautiful".

"Bye Rocco". I looked down at my screen. Sure enough it was Jake. Sighing I swiped my screen bringing my phone to my ear.

"Don't hang up". He begged.

"I'm still at school Jake".

"I know". He sighed. "Can we meet once you finish?".

"I can't I have detention".

"Then after?".

I still wasn't ready for the conversation that needed to happen. He really hurt me and now I knew how much I was falling for him. If it was anyone else I'd have blown them off by now. But not him, not Jake.

Didn't he feel the same?

Was this one sided?

"Leah?".

"I don't know Jake".

"Please baby, we need to talk".

"We do but I'm not ready yet". Maths wasn't happening. I found myself outside by my car. Getting inside I dumped my bag on the passenger seat.

"Please just let me see you".

"Not yet". I whispered.

"Babe". He groaned.

"I have to go". I ended the call my emotions getting the better of me. It wasn't going to go away. The feelings I had for him were stronger than ever and I hated it.

No matter how angry I was at what he did I couldn't bring myself to hate him and trust me I wanted to hate him. Wiping my eyes I jumped when there was a tap on my window.

Mr Gallagher.

Great!

I rolled my window down slightly. He was the last person I needed on my case today.

"Shouldn't you be in class Miss Wilson?".

"Heading there now sir". That was a lie. As soon as he went back inside I was leaving. I had decided the minute I got in my car that I didn't want to be here.

I was excited to come back today and he ruined that. He thought he could just take me out of school he and I would leave willingly with him.

"Are you okay Leah?".

"Fine sir".

"You sure?".

"Yeah".

"Okay well I still expect to see you in my class at the end of the day".

"I'll be there".

"Good. I have a few things I want to discuss with you".

"Okay".

...........

I was sat outside Starbucks with a cappuccino and a chocolate brownie. He said I had to be there by the end of the day and I would be.

I had texted Alanna and told her I skipped. I also told her what happened with Jake. The only reply I got back was I told you so.

If it wasn't for the bond we wouldn't even be together. My life would be very different. I'd be graduating school and heading off to Yale without a care in the world. I'd have been starting a new chapter in my life, making new memories.

But no. I was stuck in a rut with nothing to do after graduation. I still hadn't worked a shift at the gas station, wasn't even sure I still had a job.

Could I even call it a job?

It felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders. I still couldn't wrap my head around why he would hurt me like that. If I was meant to be the one he was going to spend the rest of his life with then why risk it?

Unless he wanted me to catch him?

No, that didn't make any sense. "Fuck". I cursed thumping my good hand off my steering wheel.

I wish I could shut my brain off.

Was it possible to love and hate him at the same time? I wanted to stay mad at him. In my head I hated him but I couldn't deny how strong my feelings for him actually were.

The butterflies that erupted at the bare thought of him. Not to mention the tightening in my stomach or how nervous he still made me.

Those feelings were never going to go away. Taking a sip of my coffee I started my engine making my way home. Detention could wait another day. Turning the radio on I turned the volume up full. Rihanna - Love on the brain blasting throughout my car. Screaming the chorus at the top of my lungs I pulled onto the highway my foot firmly on the gas.

"So once again it doesn't matter what I want". I had a life outside of him but he didn't realise that. I still had school and not to mention detention with Mr Gallagher.

"Of course it matters what you want. What more can I do for you to forgive me?".

"How about you listen to me for once. Stop pushing your way in for me to forgive you. I need time to think and process what you did". Running my hand down my face a sigh fell from my lips. "You can't just whisk me away and expect me to be okay with it".

"Noted". He unclipped his seatbelt and got out.

I knew he was pissed but he wasn't the only one. People make mistakes in relationships I get that but our relationship was different. He was made for me and I was made for him.

He shouldn't have had the urge to be with someone else. Heck I didn't. Thinking about being with someone else gave me the ick.

Taking my phone out I groaned when I noticed I had no signal. Of course this would happen to me. Unclipping my seatbelt I got out and walked the short distance to the cabin. The clothes sitting outside by the door told me he had shifted.

He was here somewhere I just didn't know where.

......

I don't know how he went about it but he did. He had packed a bag for me. Even had the nerve to pack me a bikini.

I found a bottle of wine in the fridge and was currently sitting in the hot tub out back. He hadn't returned yet and I had nothing better to do.

I wish he brought me here on better terms. I didn't want to stay mad at him but I didn't want to be a push over, I didn't want him to see me as weak. That he could do anything and I would just accept it.

Fighting was exhausting and I didn't have the energy to keep it up. But the stubbornness inside me couldn't let go of what he had done.

"Aren't you a sight for sore eyes".

I didn't say anything.

"Tell me what I can do to make this better". He slowly made his way towards me.

"Leave". I smiled.

"We're never going to be the same are we?".

"I don't know Jake you tell me". I took a sip of my wine my eyes never leaving his. "Tell me, what did that girl have that I don't?".

"I told you I was drunk and she was there".

"So if I get drunk and let's say Rocco is there-...".

"Don't you finish that fucking sentence".

"Does that make you mad?". I asked.

"You know it does". He growled.

"Then how do you think I feel?”. I was more upset that mad but he didn't need to know that.

"Do you not want to be with me anymore?".

I didn't expect him to say that. I wanted to be with him, I was falling in love with him and he was slowing claiming my heart.

"Are you going to reject me?".

"What, no". I frowned.

"Then let me fucking fix this please".

"You broke my trust Jake". My head was all over the place but I didn't want to fight anymore. I knew he was the one for me and that's what it came down to. “But I’m willing to work through this and try again”.

“Yeah?”.

“Yeah but if you hurt me again we’re done. I will reject you”. He had to know I was being deadly serious. I wouldn’t give him another chance.