The Transfer novel Chapter 60

I felt cold and empty. My head was spinning so much that it felt like it might fall off. I wished nothing more than to disappear off the face of the earth and never return.

A tear slipped down my cheek as I felt the waterworks start again. They never ended. It was constant crying for the past three days that I had been laying in bed, mourning. It was constant pain for the past three days and I wanted it to end.

My body rocked with sobs. I choked them back, my silent cries clearly not silent enough, as I heard my bedroom door open. I didn't know who was in my room but I wanted them to leave. They weren't Liam and that bothered me.

Liam had to leave Terialta. Henry had forced him. The two got into a heated argument about it, but Henry won the fight. Henry always won.

So Liam left. He took almost everyone else with him. Ezra and Jenny stayed with me, and all the others had gone. My cousins and uncles fled too. They didn't want to mourn in the exact same place that their family member had been killed.

I understood why they left. I didn't blame them for leaving. I knew that the next time I saw them it would be emotional.

"It's okay, love. It's all okay," Samaya's soft voice assured me. I felt him sit on my bed, the mattress weighing down. I rolled over and sat up. I leaned forwards and I hugged him.

Samaya hugged me back tightly and he let me cry into his shirt, wetting it with my tears. My head throbbed painfully from the amount of crying that I had done over the three days since the incident.

"When was the last time she slept?" I heard another voice. It was Jax. He was concerned and I knew that he was worried about me more than anything.

My brothers were torn by my father's death and anyone could see it, but they were handling it better than I was. I had witnessed both of my parents dying. They were all beginning to accept that it happened.

I couldn't get over it. I was still barely over what happened to my mother all those years ago.

"Probably not for a while. Donny always said we could sedate her. She'd wake up feeling better possibly," Rae's voice replied. I knew Beckett wasn't in the room.

He was technically the new Alpha of Terialta. He was my father's successor and he had to take over. But he was in mourning too, and he had a lot of things to sort out before he came the offical Alpha.

"We're not sedating our little sister. She's sad, not delusional," Samaya said to them. The boys were quiet before another person sat on my bed and began to rub my back in comfort.

"Henry is getting impatient, Ali... He needs his Beta female to help out with work around the pack or something like that. Ezra is trying to get you as much time as he can. But Henry won't budge," Rae told me. I expected my chest to tumble, but another sob escaped my lips instead.

"He can shove him lame ass excuse up his ass. She's not going anywhere while she's like this. He's doing it purposely," Jax growled out. Samaya sighed softly and hugged me a little tighter.

"You can stay here for as long as you want, Ali," Samaya told me. I sniffled and pulled away slightly.

I wanted to go home. I missed Liam and I just wanted him with me more than ever. He made some of the hurt go away.

"I miss Liam," I sniffled, rubbing my nose. The boys all nodded at me as Jax continued to rub my back. "I should go home. Prove to everyone that I'm not some weak ass pup."

The boys chuckled slightly at me and my lame attempt at humour. But they nodded their heads respectfully anyway.

"I'll go let Ezra and Jenny know. They don't want to go back either but they both said they're not going to leave you alone," Samaya told me. He stood and I nodded as he left the room.

The tears stopped and I rubbed my eyes. I looked to Jax and Rae who were smiling weakly at me.

"He would've wanted you to move on, Ali. He's with Mum now, exactly where he wants to be," Rae told me as he sat next to me. I nodded at him.

I knew he was right, but I didn't want to get familiar to the idea of being okay with my parents dying. Rogues had killed my family. My parents. It was another important person in my life that was gone. Why was it happening to me?

"She's probably kicking his ass right now. You remember how she used to always kick him into the dirt," Jax joked as he nudged me playfully. I smiled weakly at them and nodded at the memories.

I'd always sit on the porch and watch my mother toss my father around like a rag doll. She was small and quick. I inherited that from her.

She had a hard punch too. She was built like a brick, muscular in all the right places. I remember wanting to be like her so badly. She was my role model.

"You're strong. You'll get through it and you'll show everyone just how strong you are," Rae assured me. I nodded at him as he leant forwards and kissed the side of my head.

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The drive back to Takiani was quiet. Ezra drove, his eyes fixed only on the road. His two hands gripped the steering wheel tightly. Jenny looked awkward. She was fiddling with the bracelet on her wrist in her lap.

Neither of them spoke but I knew they had a million questions to ask and probably more things to say.

I sat back in my seat, clutching the blanket around my cold body. I felt the same when my mother died. Cold and empty. It wasn't a feeling that I welcomed.

"Are you sure you want to go back? You really don't have to, Ali," Ezra suddenly asked from the front. I looked up from my lap. Ezra was looking at me through the review mirror.