There's No Love In the Deathzone (BL) novel Chapter 217

Chapter 217: Chapter 211. First Time

"Well...there’s this one thing..."

Bassena asked in a quiet voice, which got Zein to raise his brow. He knew what Bassena would say though, but he pulled away so he could see the esper’s face clearly.

"What?"

"Umm..." Bassena frowned slightly, eyes darted to the side like every time he was nervous and rather uncomfortable with the topic. "About that man...the leader of the Scarlet Moon,"

"What about him?" Zein asked dryly, stepping away to shed his uniform jacket and taking off his mask. As he turned his back on Bassena to drape the uniform on an armchair, he smiled subtly. _{ƒгeewёbnovel.com}

Bassena must have been holding it back so much since the morning. Zein said they should talk later--but later came so late since they kept doing something else.

"So that’s the guy? The one who taught you...something else?" Bassena asked cautiously. Zein could feel the dilemma of curiosity and uncomfortableness of finding out about his past partner in the esper’s voice.

Suppressing his smile, Zein turned around and crossed his arms, looking into the amber eyes with a firm gaze. "Say it like an adult, Bas."

"...he’s your first?" the esper asked after chewing the inside of his cheek for a while. "The one who...took your virginity?"

"Of my dick, yes."

Zein replied nonchalantly, flatly. Not because he didn’t consider Bassena’s feelings in all of this--actually, he commended the esper for holding back so patiently for the whole day.

But he also wanted to show Bassena that he didn’t hold that era of his life as something important. At least, not important enough for Bassena to concern himself about. So he answered as if he was just looking at a report; with a boring and flat tone.

"...how long?"

"Does it matter?" Zein tilted his head. "Are you competing about my past relationship?"

"But...he loves you," Bassena clenched his jaw and fist tightly.

Zein raised his brow in surprise at this. He thought Zach had hidden it pretty well, but turned out Bassena knew about it just from meeting him once. Perhaps because both espers harbored the same feeling toward the same person, they could recognize each other’s feelings toward Zein easily.

So that was why he had been feeling angsty. Perhaps if Zach truly bore no feelings for Zein anymore, Bassena wouldn’t be this defensive about Zein’s past. But alas...

With a sigh, Zein answered. "I don’t," he uncrossed his arms and started to approach the esper, making sure the amber eyes held his gaze. "I never have."

"He still loves you, even now," Bassena furrowed his brow deeper.

"Maybe," Zein shrugged. "Should I tell the world that no one is supposed to like me because you’re the only one who can?"

Zein stopped in front of the esper, with a sharp gaze that prompted the younger man to press his lips in nervousness. "I..." Bassena opened his mouth and stopped, ended up with lowering his gaze and muttered an apology. "...am sorry."

"I won’t stop being friends with him, you know that, right?" Zein said, rather dry and cruelly.

"I know,"

"And it won’t stop Radia to make a contract with them."

"I know,"

Zein sighed at the way this mighty esper’s voice became quieter and quieter. He reached out his hand and stroked the esper’s cheek, lifting the discouraged face. The man still looked perfectly handsome though, even like this. Handsome, well-built, powerful, wealthy, and above all, adorable. So why would he constantly feel insecure? Zein thought he had shown more of his affection and adoration these days, but...was that not enough?

Slowly, he moved his fingers, sliding his thumb over the sharp jaw, stroking the high cheekbone, and grazing the flesh beneath the amber eyes. He rubbed the three scales, glinting beautifully like an obsidian as he stared into the widened amber eyes.

Bassena, utterly confused and astonished, could only stay there, frozen, as if his time had been stopped as he indulged in the soft touches and drowned in the deep blue. He didn’t dare to breathe, even, and when Zein’s thumb trailed above, Bassena closed his eyes, letting the gentle touch stroke over his brow, pressing on the slight scar on it.

He heard the sound of a sigh, soft lips pressed gently over his eyelids, and little kisses trailed all over his face; his forehead, his temple, the tip of his nose, the shell of his ear. "Baby," he heard the soft whisper that got him clutching the armrest tightly. "Open your eyes."

When Bassena did open his eyes, he almost blurted out how lucky he felt of being alive. Looking at the brilliant blue eyes that gazed at him softly, red lips that smiled at him genuinely, and felt the fingers that stroked his face gently, Bassena felt like he was willing to fall to depravity if it was for this man. He would take Zein’s name if he would be able to forever see that peaceful face and felt that gentle touch.

"Bassena Vaski," Zein called out, and Bassena couldn’t help but stutter in his daze.

"Y-yes?"

"I’ve never cried in front of anyone before," Zein said, which led the amber eyes to widen. They shook as he recalled the night when Zein had an outburst and poured out everything--the night that bound their relationship.

"Not even in front of those siblings," Zein added, clearly referring to Alma and, ultimately, the man Bassena was worrying about. "Not even in front of my brothers."