There's No Love In the Deathzone (BL) novel Chapter 7

Chapter 7: Chapter 6. The Red of Blazing Fire

When Zen walked back to the field of withered grass, there was a fire blazing.

He had spent a good amount of time just sitting on the floor, inside the darkness of a half-collapsed building, all strength left his body.

Zen couldn't remember how he manage to change his dirty and bloody clothes, and made his way to the blacksmith in the deep to retrieve his knives, even guiding some espers he met on his way.

He was in a daze, moved by instinct, and only fully regain his focus at the sight of roaring fire.

It was massive, like a new hill made of dancing flames. Fueled by bodies, lit by magic. It smelled horrible, and made the murky air even more suffocating.

And yet, Zen stood there, as close as he could, staring at the swaying tongue of flame that painted his vision red. The twins were somewhere up there, within the pile of bodies, beneath the blazing fire. Reduces to nothing but a memory.

He hadn't even talked with Hayden. The boy had stayed unconscious until the end. Perhaps that was the best. The boy didn't have to endure the pain for too long.

They didn't have to.

It was for the best. The ashes would be scattered by the wind, up high. Maybe it could reach the sky. Would those gods and goddesses take care of them, he wondered.

But then, if they did care, they should send more towers and temples down, so there would be no red-zone in this world. So the world would be as peaceful as the leaflet said.

It didn't matter.

"You don't have to suffer now," he muttered, to the flame and the stagnant air.

He just wished that he could end their suffering in a more vibrant way. The safer zone, the better environment. It was so close.

What good would it be now?

His neck felt heavy. It was the weight of guilt. Of regret. Of sorrow. Swirling inside the droplet-shaped beads; perhaps they were his tears.

Zen didn't know he still could feel all of those things.

He stayed there, even as people who'd been watching, and the agency workers tasked with it left one by one, leaving only two guards on duty. He stayed and watched the flame burn into embers. And then vanished into ashes.

It was dark then. The red had turned into black. Hours had come and gone, and Zen had stood still the entire time. When he moved, his muscle protested wildly and he stumbled back, into a broad chest of Askan Bellum.

"Are you..." he probably wanted to ask if Zen was okay, but realized that it was a very foolish question. So he asked something else, instead, while helping Zen steady himself. "Are you going somewhere?"

He noticed the bag on Zen's feet. The guide took his bag and slung it on his shoulder. "There's nothing left to do here," Zen replied in a nonchalant tone. "Thanks," he added, and like usual, just walked away.

"Where are you going?" this time, Askan following him, and Zen threw the esper a sideways glance.

"Why, are you going to come with me?" he asked sarcastically. Honestly, why did a 3-star esper that could be considered an elite bother with someone like Zen?

Askan, however, replied to the taunt with a rather serious remark. "Why don't you come with me?"

At that, Zen stopped, and turned to the side. "What?"

"I mean, come to my guild," the esper added hastily. "It's called Celestia, have you heard of it?"

It was a rhetorical question, since those who worked in dungeon business must have heard of one of the top three guilds of the Eastern Federation. Askan just said it as a pitching sale without sounding too smug about it.

What he didn't know was that Zen had never concerned himself with the dungeon business. He knew nothing of famous guilds or espers outside of the red-zone. He didn't even know proper history and guiding theory.

"No," the guide's answer was curt.

Askan blinked, and then smiled sheepishly. "...oh," he laughed awkwardly, feeling too conceited just because people had been recognizing him these days.

But of course, it wasn't the esper's fault. After all, everyone did know him and his guild. Zen was just an unfortunate exception.

But the man didn't stay awkward for long. "Well, how about it? Our headquarter is in the green-zone, and we have branches in the yellows. It's a much better place than here," Askan continued his persuasion.

Zen stared at the esper, tilting his head slightly. They had only met today, and yet this man already offered him a job in a secure location. Was this man just the gentleman kind, or was it a pity?

Zen didn't like being pitied.

But even if it wasn't...

Zen suddenly chuckled. It was bitter, and sounded harsher than he intended to, so much so that Askan was taken aback.

How ironic. Should this offer come this morning, or even before lunch, before the dungeon break happen, Zen would have accepted it without a second thought—even if he had to grind himself studying theory and whatnot to gain a proper license. And yet, if the break didn't happen, Askan wouldn't even set foot inside the red-zone, or took notice of Zen.

It was truly funny.

But now, Zen had no motivation to climb above. He had no motivation for anything, really. He didn't care about gaining a proper license anymore. He did not need for it anymore.

"Thank you for the offer..." he did, he really did, "...but I don't think I would," it was just too late. Half a day too late.

Askan sighed inwardly. Honestly, he already knew Zen wouldn't accept it. The eyes—that unforgettable shade of blue—were hard and unbending, a gaze that already decided his course. But he still tried it, because he would regret it otherwise.

He really did want to bring Zen out of this zone. Someone like Zen was too good to be kept on this god-forsaken land. And there was something in his gaze, on his disposition, that made Askan drawn to him—to the sorrow and harshness of his shell, and yet there was a soothing gentleness that contain in his guiding.

If Askan was a more selfish esper, he'd bring Zen no matter what.