BEAUTIFULLY UNFINISHED novel Chapter 68

SIXTY-SEVEN

M I R A N D A

"What about this color?" Vivian asks.

Vivian kept flipping through the pages.

"Oh my god this color would be perfect for the bridesmaids." She chimes happily.

She moved her head to me, "Don't you think?" She asked.

"Lavender?" I arched an eyebrow.

Vivian nods.

"I kind of want it in a shade of baby blue." I say.

"Baby blue? Or maybe beige. Beige is a little better. It'll make my skin color whiter."

I chuckle. "You only think about yourself when you pick the bridesmaids' gown's color and you're even my maid of honor."

"I just want your wedding to look more lavish than Audrey's!" She exclaims.

I smile at her. "I'm not competing against her wedding." I say.

"Seriously Randy, I can't wait for you to get married!" Vivian chimes happily.

"Me too."

"And it's a good thing that you've chosen Louis over Harry. I mean, getting you preggo against your own will?" She rolls her eyes.

"Shush. Someone might hear you." I pull her arm.

"Sorry. But I'm still mad at Harry though. Never thought he'd do that." She scoffs.

I nod. "Me too."

"I thought he was some kind of man who wouldn't actually do that."

"Hey, you talk about him like he raped me."

She rolls her eyes at me again, "Don't tell me you're on his side?"

I sigh. "I'm not. Okay? I just want to forget about it now that everything's fine."

It's been a month since Niall's birthday celebration in Brazil. It's been a month since Audrey gave birth too. It's been a month since Harry made any form of communication with me. It's been a month since I've seen him too.

He's really taking it seriously on avoiding me or giving up on me or staying away from me. But actually I think he's doing this cos Audrey finally gave birth to their son and he knows how much love the baby wants. I know how he takes fatherhood seriously and I'm nothing but jealous over how he can be a dad to their child Alexander.

But how am I gonna tell Harry that Audrey only wants money from him? I don't have the right to tell him because that happened before me. I was out of the picture when that happened and the only person that's allowed to spill the beans is Perrie. She needs to finally tell everyone what she knows but it will also ruin her. Zayn will know she had a miscarriage.

But come to think of it, it's been all in the past now. It's been years since that incident happened and I'm sure Zayn might actually forgive her. It's not like she wanted to have that miscarriage on purpose.

And I worry much about Harry everyday since I found out about what Audrey's real intention is. I can't help but feel guilty of what I know and I can't do anything about it. Though Vivian's keeping me busy with my upcoming wedding and she helps me and Louis with the wedding designs, practically on everything, I still think about Harry. Well, Louis' mom wanted the wedding sooner since my bump is growing and it'll be hard for me to fit into a gown. I agreed to it anyways.

"Where's Louis by the way?" She asks.

"He's on his way here. He's just picking up Ben from his pathologist."

"Awwwe, sweet daddy." She commented.

"Hey." I snapped.

She turns her head to me.

"He's my daddy." I teased and she bursted into spurts of laugher.

"Oh Randy. Where'd you get to be naughty?"

I laughed with her.

Vivian and I began scanning through some brochures and magazines of the very beautiful gowns for the bride. I haven't picked one yet since everything on the pictures and on the racks are really amazingly perfect. It's hard to choose. And hell, this boutique that Louis picked is really really expensive. I know he's ready to spend any amount for this wedding cos he already told me about it but I just wanted some small gathering and not the kind that's too lavish like Harry and Audrey's. I want it small and intimate.

I stare at Vivian as she examines the bridal gowns that I picked. They were all placed on a rack and since I couldn't hardly choose one, I'm glad I brought Vivian with me.

"Oh my god, I think this is the one!" She exclaims as she pulls it out and placed it before her.

I stared at it.

"It's too daring." I commented.

She rolls her eyes at me.

"You know, you're so lucky I love you. You're so hard to please." She scans through the gowns again.

I think maybe it's because I'm pregnant.

"I just want to have the most perfect wedding gown. My dream gown." I answered her.

"There's my bride." Louis enters the boutique while carrying Ben on his arms.

I smiled at him. "Hey love." I greeted as he walks closer to me and Vivian.

Louis bends over forward and kissed my lips briefly while Ben kissed my cheeks. "Hey Benny boy." I cooed.

"Hi m-mom." He smiles.

"Have you found a gown to wear yet?" Louis asks.

"Oh Louis, she's so hard to please. We've been here for almost two hours." Vivian whines.

Louis chuckles as he puts Ben down on the chair.

"I haven't picked my tux yet too." Louis says.

Vivian gaped, "No wonder you make a good couple." She jokes.

Louis and I stared at each other while smiling.

"Your wedding's in a month and you still haven't picked anything to wear." She adds.

"Stop worrying. I'm sure we can find something today." I stand from my chair and began walking around the boutique.

"I'll look for more gowns over there." I pointed.

I went on the other wing of the boutique and as I examine every gown there was this annoying saleslady that kept following me everywhere I go. It's as if I was a thief and she feels like I'm going to steal something anytime soon. I really hate being followed inside a boutique, it makes me feel that I need to buy something cos they're following me.

"Were the invitations sent to the other guests already?" I hear Vivian.

"Yes." I responded.

I wonder if Harry received his invitation card, I haven't seem to hear from him about it. He's been busy with his newborn son, he's seen out and about carrying Alexander.

"I'm so excited." I hear Vivian.

"You're even the one that's much more worried for us." I hear Louis.

I chuckle as I kept glancing at the other beautiful gowns, they were sparkling and perfect. I think when you wear them, you don't want to get it off of you. It's like every gown is a dream wedding gown. I sigh at the thought of it, I'm thrilled that I'm actually getting married. I'm really getting married to the man I've been having a crush on since I was seventeen and I can't even believe it.

"Have you heard that love?" Louis calls out my attention as I daydream on each of the wedding gown's beauty.

I feel Louis' arm wrapping around my waist as he kiss my cheek. "Heard what love?" I asked.

"That Perrie and Sophia are coming over New York to help us plan the wedding." He says.

I quickly turned my attention to him, "They will?" I asked.

He nods.

"And you should feel lucky cos they didn't even help Audrey's wedding." He answers.

I smile and pulled another wedding gown.

"How about this gown?" I asked.

Louis shakes his head, "That's too sexy at the back." He tells me.

I smiled while he showed me another gown.