Dominant Alpha novel Chapter 25

My angry gaze shot to him. I was more angry at myself than at him. What the fuck was I doing? Just one kiss? One fucking kiss was enough to make me lose control? With him, I always loose control like a whore. What the fucking hell was wrong with me?

I needed to do something. I could not allow myself to lose control like this. I could not allow myself to fall for him or become gentle towards him. I could not let myself forget everything that he did to me so easily. This was starting to get out of my control. I started shouting at him in my anger,

"What the fuck do you want Christian? Please, just tell me clearly. Aren't you satisfied yet? Isn't everything that you did to me was not enough? What are you trying to do to me? What do you want from me? You spoiled my whole fucking life for god sake! What else is left here that you want from me?"

"You." He replied in a soft tone, his eyes losing the anger and only the pleasure clouding his gaze.

"What?" I shouted in frustration, unable to understand the meaning behind his words.

"I want you Ava. I am so fucking sorry for what I did that day at the party."

I was hell shocked from what I heard.

The arrogant, spoiled, frustrating Alpha Christian is apologizing to me? Am I dreaming?

I blinked and kept on staring at him. When I did not give any reply, he started speaking further-

"I know what I did, I gave you pain and I am sorry for that. But this thing, this mate bond is just as difficult for me as it is for you. I had never imagined having a human as my mate. And now when I have you, every second of my life is spent at the scary thought of hurting you physically. I... I feel like I will break you by just touching you. Please try to understand, now you have to stay with me forever."

His gentle words did nothing but increase my frustration. What he thought, what he did, or what worried him was of no matter to me because the actual truth was that I was not here because I had wished to. I was here because he was forcing me to stay!

"But I told you already, I do not want to live here with you! I want to go back to my old life, to my parents." I replied in a frustrated tone.

But my reply seemed to bring back his anger and by god, I knew it was not a good sign when he got angry.

"For fuck sake Ava! Are you stupid or some kind of idiot? Don't you get a simple thing? We can not stay without each other. We are made for each other. If any one of us separated, we are gonna die."

I narrowed my eyes in anger. He is an idiot and he is calling me stupid?