Dominant Alpha novel Chapter 29

The moment stilled there only. The pain, the anguish was making me feel dizzy. I was still and he was frozen.

"Ava.. I.. Fuck! I didn't want to say all that shit to you. I swear. They just slipped off my tongue."

"Please.. at least now stop lying Christian. For god sake I'm tired of you, your dominance, your distrust. You said those words because that's exactly what you think in your heart. Now I get it, no matter how much I try, I can't change your thoughts." I shouted.

The whispering words came on my lips on their own.

"I promised myself that I would never fall in love with you. But it was the night when you made me smile, made me laugh and I felt happy for the first time in a long time. I thought you wanted your life with me. Even after everything you did, I accepted you." Old memories of his love were coming in front of my eyes, making them sting from tears.

"But here you are, reminding me that I'm not a part of your world, of you. I'm just here to please you just like a slut. I guess that's my destiny I can't change otherwise..." . After a sigh I said "Nevermind. I'm going."

He took a eager step towards me. "Ava.. I won't let you go anywhere." He growled.

"Don't worry. I'm not running away from here.. or should I say .. I can't run away from here. I'm going downstairs."

I walked away from there. Once again!

At midnight I returned to the room. The whole mansion was silent. I opened the door of room silently and walked inside but was shocked to see that the lights were still on and Christian was standing near the window.

I removed my gaze from him and went to change in the bathroom. When I walked out Christian was still there near the window. I sighed and laid down on the bed.

I closed my eyes but sleep was far away from them. After a minute I felt arms around my waist and I knew who it was. His intoxicating scent filled my nose.

"I'm Sorry."

"You always are." I whispered. "You keep on hurting me despite of taking a vow of not doing the same again."

"I know but that's the way I am Ava. You know I'm not perfect."

"So I have to take all the shit you throw at me?"

I felt his arm tightening around me and then he turned me to face him,

"I love you Ava. From the bottom of my heart. So much that it hurts. I have faults in me, I know that. I can't control my anger when someone insults me, I lose control over myself. But you have to bear me the way I am. I can't afford to lose you. Please. Give me a last chance. I promise, I'll try to control my anger, I've been trying to control it. I'll try harder. I'll do more of everything to make you feel happy."

"I'm tired of your behavior Christian. I have feelings and you always crush them. I have feelings for YOU. Please don't break me." Tears slipped off my eyes.