Master (MxB) novel Chapter 14

Corey's POV

Greg drops me off in front of the door to Hayden's house and I slowly make my way up the stairs.

School was exhausting today, with finals having started. I've been studying almost non stop, even though Hayden keeps telling me that I need to take breaks in between. He doesn't understand, I need to pass. It's the one sure way to show Father that I can do this, that I'm not as worthless as he said I am.

I know it seems illogical that I'm still trying to prove myself to this man, but years of being made to feel worthless, doesn't just go away in a few weeks or months. So here I am, still trying to prove to that hateful man that I am worth something.

I shake off the dark thoughts as I open the door, wondering if Hayden was home yet. He said he was coming home early today, because he had some things to sort out, but his early and my early were very seldom the same thing.

As I step into the house, I spot one of the new security guys, standing just inside the door. I can't remember what his name is, but he seems nice. A bit cold, but nice.

I was skeptical about his abilities when I was first introduced to him a few days ago, because if you look at him, he was only slightly taller than me and quite lean, with a pretty face for a guy. Then Hayden listed his abilities and what he was doing before getting into security and I have to admit, I was impressed. The little guy will be able to kick ass.

I nodded at him as I walked past, heading to the kitchen. He nodded back, before going back to doing whatever it is he does all day long.

In the kitchen, I head straight to the fridge, grabbing a water as well as the salad Hayden has taken to leaving for me every day.

I smile as I look down at it and think of how sweet he has been since we met. He's been really amazing to me since the first day, and I had no idea how I would ever be able to repay him.

I left my mind to wonder as I finished my food, then rinsed my dishes, before making my way towards the stairs. My mind was playing over the past few days and wondering what I could wear today to tease the bug guy

As I get to the top of the stairs, I glance down the hallway opposite to the one I take to reach my room. The slightly opened door at the end of the hall immediately caught my attention. I know it's always locked, because I've actually tried getting in there a few times. When I asked Hayden about it, I never really got a clear explanation of what that room was for.

As any normal, curious eighteen year old would do, I made my way towards the open door. I know, I know, curiosity killed the cat, BUT, satisfaction brought him back. So down the hallway I went, getting closer and closer to the door.

As I came right up to the door, I could hear shuffling coming from the inside and with my curiosity piqued, I nudged it open a bit wider, before peering around the edge of the door.

What I saw inside, caused my breathing to stop and my heart to race. From the black walls, with the intricate red patters painted across it, to the giant bed and very intimidating cross against the walls. The whips and canes displayed like artwork against one wall. The chains and pulleys hanging from a specialized framework on the ceiling. The interesting looking swing in the far corner of the room. Then last, but not least, the bench that was on display right in the center of the room.

My brain tried to make sense of what I was seeing, but it refused to function, because standing with his back to me, in front of a chest of drawers, looking fine as fuck, was Hayden. Once again he wasn't wearing a shirt, only an old, faded pair of low slung jeans and barefoot.

Without any thought, my feet slowly carried me into the room, my steps silent on the thickly carpeted floor.

I knew what this room was from my very first glimpse of it. I might have been very innocent, but I have watched Fifty Shades of Grey. I also might have become a little bit curious about BDSM after that and let's just say that some of what I had seen on my searches through the internet, had intrigued my innocent mind, but also left me feeling very nervous about it.

I don't know what attracted his attention, but Hayden suddenly turned around and looked at me with widened eyes.

"Umm... Corey, when did you get home?" He asked, but I could see the look of fear and guilt in his eyes. My heart was thumping a mile a minute, but I realized that out of the two of us, Hayden actually seemed to be more afraid than me.

"I-i got h-home a few minutes ago." I told him, with a slight stutter. My nerves were through the roof. I really didn't do too well with sudden changes or surprises. My nerves weren't from seeing the room and realising what it meant. No, my nerves were from the suddenness of it all.

"Oh, umm..." Hayden ran his fingers through his hair in agitation and he seemed to be at a loss for words for the very first time since I met him.

I decided to man up for once in my life and apologize for intruding on his private space, so I took a deep breath, "I'm s-sorry for intruding l-like this. I d-didn't mean to. I j-just saw the door open and I g-got curious. I'm s-so sorry." I stumbled through my apology, and start backing out of the room.

"Corey, wait." I heard Hayden say as I turned to leave the room. I slowly turned around, but I couldn't bring myself to look up into his eyes. Not from fear, but because I didn't want him to see what I was feeling right now.

It was silent for a moment, before he spoke again. "Look at me Corey." There was no way I could not obey the clear command in his voice. It pulled me in and my body became a puppet to his commands as I find myself raising my eyes to his.

His eyes searched mine before he took a step closer to me. I started trembling as I became mesmerized in his eyes. The look so intense, that I felt compelled to follow his every command.

"What exactly are you trying to tell me Hayden? I need it to be clear so there are no misunderstandings or anything like that." I told him and where the confidence came from, I would never know, but in that moment, I was able to voice everything clearly.

He moved closer to me and my heart started beating faster. He pulled me towards him, and before I could utter a single word, I was straddling his lap and we were face to face.

"What I mean little one, is that I want you to be mine. I want you to be my lover as well as my Sub. We obviously have a lot to discuss and I would have to train you in my lifestyle, if you choose to, of course. But I can promise you one thing, I will always make sure you know you are loved and cared for. All I want for now is to know if you can see us actually being more than just friends? We can take it as slow as you need, love. I won't force you, or push you for more than you are willing to give me."

While he was talking, my eyes filled with tears and he gently started rubbing his big hands over my back. I was so overwhelmed with different emotions that I didn't know what to do or say at that moment. I wanted this man with everything in me, and he was offering himself to me so beautifully, but what if I wasn't enough? What if he lost interest in me, found someone better than me? What if I was a terrible Sub? I couldn't get the words past the huge knot in my throat, but as usual, Hayden seemed to be able to read me well and he pulled me into him for a comforting hug.

"Don't let your fears make your decisions for you baby. You are perfect just the way you are and that is what attracted me to you in the first place. In a matter of weeks, you have become everything to me. You have my attention every hour of every day and there is absolutely nothing that I will not do for you. The feelings I have for you is so incredibly strong and I think we have a shot at something that only comes once in a lifetime. Please tell me you are willing to give us a try." His voice was practically pleading with me by the time he was done and I swallowed hard so I can answer him.

I took a deep, steadying breath and looked into his eyes. I wanted him to know I meant every word that I was about to say. "I don't care about your age Hayden. You are a wonderful man and have shown me over and over how amazing you are. You have a beautiful and kind soul and I would be a fool not to see that. I want to try this with you, because I have these growing feeling inside of me as well. I just don't know if I would make a very good Sub for you. What if I mess up and you become tired of me?" I asked and he pulled me into another tight hug.

"Let's not think too much about that right now sweetheart, although if you ness up, it's easily corrected with a punishment and then forgiven. I think you will make the perfect Sub, but that will come later. For now I think we should concentrate on building a normal relationship first, then we can take it from there." His words made me so happy that I squeezed him with all my might, hiding my happy grin in the crook of his neck.

I wasn't going to think about what he meant by punishment right now. I couldn't remember the last time I've been this happy.

After a few minutes of just cuddling together, I pulled away from him and looked down into his gorgeous eyes. The moment seemed to swell between us and I saw his face get closer and closer. I felt like I was in a trance and I'm pretty sure I stopped breathing as I felt his breath ghost over my lips.

This moment was weeks in the making, but I still couldn't believe this was actually happening.

The minute his lips touched mine, I was home. This was where I belonged, and I was going to do everything I could to stay right here.

As the kiss deepened, I felt Hayden's arms tighten around me and I felt complete for the very first time in my life.

I was determined to become the best damn Submissive Hayden could ever want, if that is what it took for me to stay right here in his arms.