Only Mine novel Chapter 19

"Jess, come on, drink up."

"Shit, Han, my head is spinning and we didn't even leave the apartment yet."

"It's freaking New Year's. You are supposed to be drunk even before the clock hits midnight and turn us all in pumpkins."

We are all laughing like hyenas, impossible for anyone to not realize how drunk we are. Well, I am still angry about Jake. And disappointed. And sad. And furious. And it is New Year's Eve. So I have plenty of reason to drink my ass off.

All of us girls are sitting on the couch at Hannah's place, drinking some yummy cocktails that I probably don't want to know what they are made of and getting ready for a crazy night out. We are going to our favorite spot, the coolest pub in our town that is our getaway at least once a month. And from then on, wherever we feel like it.

It's not like I have somewhere else to be. My mum is celebrating with her friends, ladies her age probably crazier than we are, Brian and Becca went away with their group of friends to Amsterdam and Jake, well, haven't heard a word from him since Christmas morning.

Can't really count the times I wanted to contact him, but I knew I should have some pride and find a guy who would want to show off I'm his girl, not make me some dirty little secret.

"Hellooooo, Earth to Jessica. Where did you go again?"

It's the second time Han had to pull me out of my funky mood, thinking about things that had no place in my head on the night that should be celebrated in hopes of a better year to come.

Damn you, Jake. I'm not missing you today. Period.

I shook my head lightly before yelling for all the girls to hear.

"One more shot! And then we go out and have the craziest night of this year."

They all screamed in unison, lifting their cups and clinking them together.

"To the best night ever."

Yes, to the best one.

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I can feel my heartbeat in my head. I swear every beat of my heart feels like a clap of thunder in my brain. Fuck my life, this is one hell of a hangover.

I try to lift my head from the pillow, but my head is pounding more with every move, so I just stop trying.

Before I manage to open my eyes, a movement registers next to me and a heavy arm lays over my stomach.

What the hell? Where am I? Who in the name... is this?

In a sudden panic, I open my eyes forcefully and there is a guy's arm draped over my bare front and I'm afraid to look to my right to see whose is it.

Please not let it be some random guy. Please no.

I turn my head and the most beautiful green eyes sleepily look at me. Jake.

God, I don't know if I'm relieved it's him or furious I ended up in bed with him. I'm trying to bring back the memories from last night, anything that would lead to why I'm in his bed, just now realizing that, and what happened with us.

My mind is still hazy, but certain flashes of me begging for more, and screaming for Jake do enter my mind. And his pleas to not leave him again resurface, making my heartbeat harder against my chest.

Jake's now fully awake, looking at me with caution, probably trying to decipher where my head is at and how I'm going to react. Pretty justified if you ask me. What the hell did I do yesterday? Why did I give in again? I was so sure I won't let him trample me like this. Stupid stupid drunk Jessica. Argh.

"Good morning, baby."

His voice is still raspy from sleeping, but it only makes me shiver more, subconsciously making me pull the blanket higher up to my neck as this could diminish how affected I am by him.

"What am I doing here? What happened yesterday?"

His brows set low down in a frown, making him look wounded by my words.

"You don't remember anything from yesterday?"

"Just bits and pieces, honestly."

"What 'bits and pieces'?"

My cheeks redden at the things I remember, and apparently I enjoyed our encounter as much as he did. My body is instantly on high alert like I could feel his lips tracing a path between my breasts down to my navel.

"Just ... not much."

He moves slowly closer to me, his arm against my belly giving him the ability to pull me closer, and when I'm about to protest, I'm suddenly pulled under him, his weight pushing me down, but it's the most delicious pressure I felt in a long time.

I miss him so damn much, I am completly, head-over-heels in love with him.