Psycho - Headless Horsemen MC novel Chapter 56

- Jax -

We begin to walk up the stairs, neither of us has spoken a word since we left the pit, I can hear her softly talking to herself but I can't make out what he is saying. I've never seen her like that before, it was eye-opening, but I know why she did it, and I don't blame her for any of it. Everyone close to her has hurt her or left her, I was supposed to keep her safe and make her feel loved and I failed, I'm no better than her piece of shit ex, her fuckwit of a stepfather or her pathetic brother.

We get to the top of the stairs and Ricci steps out from his office smirking, "I see she didn't kill you" He says with a shit-eating grin, "Get in the office" He orders both of us. We walk in and sit down in the chairs across from his desk, "Knew it would work" He says smugly to himself, "Really? This was fucking planned?" Harley growls.

"Oh Mija, I couldn't stand watching you mope around the house and cry every half an hour because of him. I could see you fighting yourself every day on whether to go back to him or not, so I brought him here and made you choose. Shit's going to hit the fan, more often than it should but that's just what you get when you work in the area we work in, it's high stress and high risks. As a father, I understand why he did it, but he should have gone about it a different way. Now next time he does it call me and I'll come down there and personally deal with him" He says looking over to me.

"There won't be a next time" I reply, he looks over to me and smiles, "You would want to pray theres no next time," He says before looking back over to Harley. "Now you didn't need to shoot the fucking man or beat him half senseless," He says leaning back in his chair, I watch as her jaw clenches and she digs her nails into the palms of her hands, "YOU MADE ME THIS WAY, THIS IS THE WAY YOU BUILT ME" She screams at him.

He slams his hands down on the table and stands up straight, "You were taught to kill, I didn't tell you to do any of this, you did it to yourself Mija. You made the decision to send him down to the pit, not me" He grits through his teeth, "YOU TAUGHT ME TO TORTURE AND HURT PEOPLE TO GET ANSWERS YOU SON OF A BITCH, YOU CAME INTO MY ROOM BEFOREHAND AND DID'NT TRY TO CHANGE MY MIND" She screams again standing up.

"YOU BUILT ME NOT TO FEEL WHEN I'M IN THAT MINDSET, YOU BUILT ME TO HURT WHEN I GO TO THAT DARK SPACE, YOU KNOW I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ANYTHING WHEN I'M LIKE THAT, YOU KNOW I'M NOT ME WHEN I'M LIKE THAT, do you really think I wanted to hurt him that bad, you think I was happy to beat my fucking husband? You should have done something, you should have stopped me, you should have killed me!" I look over to her and see she's shaking and trembling, I stand up and look over to Ricci, "Thanks for the talk man, what room is she staying in?" He looks at us still slightly amused as I throw her over my shoulder "The only room with a black door" I slide my hand down her back and take her gun out of her waistband I nod to him as she screams and hits my back.

I walk out of the office and look for the room with the black door, once I find it I open it and walk-in. I put her on the floor and turn around and lock the door behind me. I turn around and lean against the door smiling at her "What?!" She yells clearly frustrated that I find this slightly amusing.

"You're sexy when you're angry," I say chuckling, she rolls her eyes and walks over to bed sitting down on the edge of it, she rests her feet on the bed frame and tucks her head into her knees pulling at her hair. I slowly walk over and kneel down on the ground infront of her, I can hear her mumbling to herself again softly.

"Kitten" I speak softly, "Go away" Her voice is quiet but it breaks as she speaks, "Nah I'm good right here actually" I stand up and remove her hands from the side of her head and she slowly lifts her face up to look at me, her nose and eyes are bright red from crying, a mixture of tears and sweat drip down her skin, "Just go, Jax, please, just go" She sobs.

I don't blame her for what happened down there, I know all too well that you can't control yourself when you get into that mindset. She could have tortured me, she could have broken every bone in my body, fuck she could have killed me, but I'd still come running back to her, every fucking time. Because believe it or not she did it out of love, if she didn't love me anymore she would have killed me as soon as she saw me, if she didn't love me she wouldn't have felt guilty, if she didn't love me she wouldn't still call me her husband.

"I'm not going anywhere, the only way you will get me to leave you alone is if you kill me, and even then I'll come back and haunt you every day and keep all the other dickheads away from you. I don't blame you Harley, and I won't blame you, ever. Because I know you can't get yourself out of that dark space until your demons are satisfied" I say as I wipe her tears away.