BEAUTIFULLY UNFINISHED novel Chapter 36

THIRTY-FIVE

After moving to Louis' penthouse, Ben has been quiet the whole trip. I don't know what's he thinking but I'm sure he's bothered about a while ago. I just hope he won't take it seriously.

As much as I didn't want to leave the Tomlinson mansion, we had to cos Louis was so mad at Lottie and I can't seem to stop him myself cos he said ben and I were disrespected. Even though I'm also mad at her, I really can't hate Lottie cos if I do then I'll be mad at her for the rest of my life and we won't get along if that'll happen. I wouldn't want pride will get in between the three of us.

"Hey Benny, what's wrong?" I ask him as he untie his shoe.

He sighs as he pulled his head up to me. I glared at Louis coming to the doorway of Louis' bedroom.

"Aunt Lottie doesn't like me, does she?" Ben asked me.

Louis sighs as I watch him and I moved my head back to Ben. "Of course not. She likes you. And, did you see how uncle Louis' mommy was so fond of you?"

"Yes." He answered softly. "But aunt Lottie doesn't like me. Why mom? Why doesn't she like you for uncle Louis? Is it because of me again?"

I quickly wrapped my arms around Ben and just felt myself pitying my own son for the things he heard a while ago. Ben always thinks that people doesn't like me cos I have him but I don't really care what people will say about us. I don't really care about how people say stuff against me for having a child who doesn't have a father because Ben is the most beautiful blessing I had in my entire life. I don't think Ben is a karma cos he's not.

I kiss the top of Ben's head. "No baby. It's not because of you. I don't want you to think that way okay?"

Ben nods as I release him.

"Mommy loves you so so so much. Don't think that way just cos of the things that you hear because it's not like that. Okay?"

Ben nods again.

Louis started walking closer to us and squats down in front of us. He smiles as he pushes Ben's hair behind his ear.

"Hey Benny. You wanna go touring around London for a quick?" Louis smiles. I know he's trying to cheer up Ben.

Ben's gloomy face lightened. "Yes!"

I exhaled, feeling relived that Ben's being happy and excited again.

"Wanna take a ride on the world's biggest Ferris Wheel?" Louis adds.

And as I stare at them, I was beginning to smile a little bit cos Louis is trying his very best to take Ben's mind off what he was bothered about.

"Yes! Please yes!" Ben jumps on the bed.

"Alright. Let's go. Tie your shoelaces back on!" Louis says happily.

Ben quickly did and the three of us headed out of the bedroom. Ben was so excited that he was running ahead of us while Louis placed his arm around my waist. He kisses my temple and takes a small quick squeeze on my waist.

"I'm so sorry about Lottie." He says.

"Don't worry about it. I'm fine."

"No you're not. You're telling me you're fine but I know you're not."

I smiled at him. "I'm trying not to be worried about it. So let's not worry, okay?"

Louis nods at me.

We left the penthouse and had a quick tour around London. I was very enthralled by the marvelous city of London. I couldn't believe such amazing beauty exist. We were driving around the city, had some cones of deliciously good ice cream and had a few park and museum visits. It was awesome and Ben was enjoying the most. He seemed to forget about what he heard from Lottie and I thank Louis for it.

We did some quick shopping too since the dinner party that Louis told me was happening tonight. As for the private dinner party, I didn't bother or worry about it at all cos it's just dinner together with some of Louis' friends here in England. And though I'm kind of nervous, I was pretty much excited to meet Louis' english friends.

Louis picked some dresses for me to wear tonight and Ben was going to be spending time with Louis' mother while we go out for dinner. Of course I allowed him to stay there since I had no choice and I trust Louis' mother to take care of Ben. Plus, Lottie was out with a couple of her friends too so I don't need to worry about it.

As I stand in front of the mirror and stared at my own reflection as I wear this insanely gorgeous dress that Louis chose for me, I was having seconds thoughts of wearing it tonight. I just thought it showed too much skin and I'm kind of not used to it.

It was a bright yellow dress with a top cut low which was showing off some of my cleavage. The dress was skin tight which was a few inches above my knees. The last time I wore this kind of dress, was seven years ago. At that bar in L.A. I held my neck and reminisced that my 'Rose' necklace could still be with Harry.

"I wonder how to get it back." I murmur.

"How to get what back?" I quickly turned around and saw Louis standing by the doorway of the bedroom.

Shit. I cursed mentally.

"Uhhh... well... my body back. I'm fatter now. I wonder how to get my old slender body back." I chuckle nervously.

He smiles, "You are sexy. Don't worry about getting it back."

I smile sheepishly as I turn to face the mirror again. "God this is a really sexy dress." I say to myself.

Louis moves closer wearing his white printed shirt, a black blazer over it, some black skinny jeans and sneakers. His hair was gelled and pushed back. I love it so much when he's having his clean-cut look. He looks so neat and so manly most especially with his Calvin Klein perfume that I mostly love on him. Plus he never changed his style and it still looks good on him. He still looks the same like he was years ago.

"Wow. Look at you." Louis compliments as he stands behind me.

He placed his hands over my hips and kissed my shoulder. "You really look beautiful love." He says.

I smile at him. "Thank you. But I think this dress is too sexy for me."

"It is sexy. And it looks pretty damn good on you." He says.

I spin around and faced him as I lace my arms around his neck. "You look pretty damn good yourself."

He leans closer and kissed me briefly.

"I think we need to go. Dinner's starting in fifteen minutes. We're a bit late. Kind of but they won't mind." Louis tells me.

I smile. "Alright. I think Im good to go."

He offers me his arm and I quickly hooked it with mine. We went out of his penthouse together and quickly hopped inside his car. I tried to tell myself that everything will turn out well tonight.

"Are your friends nice?" I asked.

"Yes. They are. Don't worry." Louis reaches for my hand and rubs it with his.

I stared at myself and damn cleavage showing off to much. My heels were starting to kill my calves and I just wish I won't keep standing for this dinner party.

Finally we arrived outside this extravagant looking restaurant and I think only famous celebrities and wealthy assed people are only accommodated in here and can only afford here. I stepped out of the car while Louis opened it for me. I take a deep breath in and exhaled as I take Louis' hand.

"You look very lovely. Relax." Louis says to my ear.

I smiled shyly.

We begin to walk inside the restaurant and I was insanely marveled by the place. I was utterly surprised. It was a hundred times different than those restaurants in New York. It's really on a different level kind of difference.

"Mr. Tomlinson, good evening. Table for?" The waiter asked.

"VIP Room 1." Louis answered.