His Ruthless Desire novel Chapter 69

Taimur

He was sitting beside Alia, who was fast asleep. Her head was resting on his shoulder and she had her arm wrapped around him.

Riyadh had chosen to stay in New York, to look after the business, he had asked Alia to come with him because he didn't want to be alone. Not after the conversation, he had with Eva.

He never really understood her, nor when she was with him, nor now when she was not in his life. Her eyes told him one story and while she was hell-bent on making him believe another version. Why is a woman so complicated? Why just they don't admit their feelings like men do?

The way she held his hands, the way she looked at him and the way she held his face in her hands. How can she not see how much she wanted him, it was like she didn't want to admit she loved him?

Why the hell did she despise him so much that she never admitted her feelings for him? He knew she had feelings for her but she never admitted the extent of her feelings to him.

He looked at Alia, who was sleeping peacefully in his arms, why was Eva not like Alia?

Alia was always straight forward about what she felt, she never held anything back. She gave everything to the people she loves. At least he was lucky to have Alia in his life.

Why can't he just forget Eva? Why does she keep crawling back to his mind, no matter how hard he tried to shut her memories away. She would always come back to his mind, he hated himself for still loving her. She was happy with his husband, what was that Mateo had and he doesn't?

Was Mateo better than him at lovemaking? Did Mateo care for her more than he did? Did Mateo love her the way he did?

Then why was she with Mateo and not him? He had lied to Riyadh and Alia that he didn't want her back in his life. What else could he say, that she didn't want to come back to him? That she never loved him?

He had hated her when he found out she hid the fact from him that he has a daughter, but when Alia told him that Eva was afraid of him, Taimur realized that this was the reason she hid the truth from him. He could never understand the reason why she was afraid of him. He had never done anything to her, yes he hurt her with his words but he never abused her physically or sexually.

He had held her against her will because he loved her and he didn't want to lose her. Why couldn't Eva realize how much he loved and wanted her?

"Hey, you okay?"

He heard Alia's voice, he looked at her who was now awake and was looking at him with sleep-filled eyes.

"I am now", He said as he kissed her.

" How much time for the landing?" She asked pulling away.

"Half hour", He replied.

Taimur could see the dread in her eyes, he knew they wanted to kill him there was no if or but. But he didn't want to tell Alia that he was not sure if he could come out of this alive.

" I will be fine, trust me. I will never leave you alone in this life, I promise", He took her dainty hand in his and kisses it.

He was feeling guilty, he had never lied to Alia but in the last few days, he had just not lied to her but had made fake promises to her.

"How are the boys? Did you called and checked?" He asked, in all this stress he had forgotten about his son's.

Only Eva and Emma had occupied his mind for the last few days, he couldn't let this happen, he couldn't ignore his responsibilities. He was not just Emma's father he was father to all his three sons. But Emma was his firstborn, though he had met her once all he could think about was her. And she was a girl, he had always wanted a daughter, and she was his love child. The child of the woman he had loved but who didn't love him back. How couldn't Emma be special to him?

"They are fine, they are just missing their Abi, Ahmed was upset because you didn't call them in the last few days", Alia replied.

" I am sorry Alia, for ignoring you and the boys, I am just so stressed out that my mind is not functioning properly", He said taking a deep breath.

"It's okay, Tim. I know you love them, and right now your focus needs to be on Emma. Do you have her picture? I have never seen how she looks" Alia asked.

Taimur removed his wallet from his pocket and opened it, he had taken a picture of Emma from the album and had kept it in his wallet with the pictures of Alia and the boys.