Breaking All the Rules novel Chapter 26

I go through my next two classes wondering what Ian has to say. I'm so focused on trying to come up with ideas of what it could be I'm not even paying attention to what my professors are saying, I'm really going to have to borrow Jess's notes. When class is over Jess and I start walking to my car.

"I wonder what it could be?" Jess says.

"I don't know but the suspense is killing me! I wished he hadn't even mentioned it."

"I know! He should've just waited until you were alone and then say something. It's cruel to leave you hanging like that. I wonder if he's finally got enough balls to tell you he wants to date you."

My heart skipped a beat at that, that thought had crossed my mind. I hope that's what it is! "I hope so, if it's not I'm just going to tell him. I'm tired of wondering how he feels and I'm pretty sure he does really like me. I know he doesn't do relationships but if he cares about me enough he will make an exception right?"

"I think so. If he doesn't than forget him. It's been over a year. You can't keep driving yourself crazy anymore. I'm glad you're finally going to tell him."

"Yeah, hopefully he tells me first but if he doesn't I'm just going to go for it."

"That's my girl." She laces her arm through mine as we walk through campus. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I'm going to tell him. Well not about loving him, I don't think he's ready for that yet, but I am going to tell him I don't want to just hook up anymore. I want to date him and only him. I want to be his girlfriend. I've never been one for casual hook ups, in fact he's the only one I've ever done that with, the other two guys I've slept with were my boyfriends.

A movement catches my eye and I look to see a couple kissing but when they pull away I see it's not just some couple, it's Ian with some blonde girl. He sees me the same time I see him, his eyes meet mine and they're so wide they look like they're going to pop out of his head. He pushes the girl away and starts toward me.

I turn and start walking away, I'm walking so fast I'm practically running. "Kamdyn, Kamdyn, wait!" I hear Ian's voice over the pounding in my head. I'm trying so hard to blink back the tears but am failing miserably. The last thing I want is for him to see me cry. He's not worth my tears, he's no better than Mason. So much for us being exclusive. I'm such an idiot, I really thought I was the only one he was hooking up with! What's wrong with me? He's the star pitcher, of course he's not only sleeping with me! Every girl around him throws herself at him, like he would ever turn them down for me.

I feel him grab my arm and I quickly wipe the straying tear from my eye with my free hand before he sees it. Good thing I'm wearing these big sunglasses. "Kamdyn." He pulls me to a stop and stands in front of me.

"What?" I snap. I don't want to talk to him, not right now. It's taking everything I have not to burst into tears right here in front of him. Get it together, Kamdyn.

"That wasn't what it looks like." He says, his eyes searching my face.

I force a laugh. "Right."

"I don't want to do this anymore." I yank my hand from his grasp and hug my waist.

"What?" He looks so confused and my stomach turns from just the sight of him, I was so stupid to actually think I could just sleep with him and not fall in love. Even standing here with my heart broken into a million pieces I still feel a connection to him.

"I don't want to hook up with you anymore. It was fun at first but now it's getting.....complicated. Let's just go back to being strictly friends. I have to go."

"Wait. What? What do you mean you don't want to hook up anymore? Because some chick kissed me? I told you I didn't even kiss her back, she just threw herself at me and-"

"No, because you're standing here right now feeling the need to explain yourself to someone you don't even think is good enough to be your girlfriend."

"Not good enough? Kamdyn-"

"We should've never crossed that line." I say before turning and leaving him gaping after me. I'm so stupid for sleeping with him. He was supposed to be safe, he was supposed to be just for fun to help me get over Mason, but I messed it all up, I broke all the rules and fell in love with him.