Breaking All the Rules novel Chapter 28

I refill my cup from the keg and when I turn around Ian is right behind me, he's so close I almost bump into him. I didn't even know he'd followed me. He grabs my waist to steady me and I nearly moan from the contact. Get a grip!

"You okay?" He asks, studying me with those sexy blue eyes.

No, I'm not okay, you broke my heart into a million pieces and you don't even care!

"Yeah, sorry, I didn't know you were behind me." I tip my cup back and chug the contents in my cup. It tastes disgusting but at least it will help numb me enough to where I can stand to be around him without crying or jumping on him right here in front of everyone, I hope.

"Whoa, slow down." He watches as I refill my cup. "Are you sure you're okay? You hate beer."

"If I drink it fast it's not that bad." I tell him.

Someone bumps into him and he nearly falls on top of me, he grabs my hips with both hands, my back legs hit the keg. "Sorry." He yells, his hands linger on my body longer than necessary and he's so close all I have to do is lean up and kiss him. My body melts against his hard body and I have to force myself to look away from his lips. Why am I still responding to him this way? I just saw him making out with another girl two days ago! What is wrong with

me?

"That's okay." I drink the remainder of my beer, trying my best to look unaffected.

He leans in, presses his lips to my ear. "Come on, it's too crowded in here. Let's go outside so we can hear each other."

I shake my head. "Maybe later." I refill my cup and pull away from him, it's like there is an invisible force holding me to him and it's so hard to get away from him. "I'll see you later." I yell before disappearing into the crowd. When I finally get some distance from him I sigh with relief. I really have to get a grip.

I try to avoid him, but unfortunately that proves impossible, I keep running into him. It's like no matter where I go he continues to find me. After the third time of making an excuse and disappearing into the crowd like a coward Ian finds me again talking to Jess and Anna. "There you are." He says with a smile. "You ready to go somewhere and talk?"

I've had enough beer by now that I'm starting to feel it. "No, I want to dance." I say walking off. He follows behind me and starts dancing with me. He puts his hands on my waist as we dance and I try to ignore how good his hands feel. I wrap my arms around his neck and move my hips to the beat. He moves with me and I try so hard to focus on the music instead of how good he feels pressed against me. He holds me close as we dance and I can't tell if his shallow breathing is from the dancing or if he's just as turned on as I am. He leans down and presses his lips to my ear, "You look so hot tonight."

My stomach gives a little flip at his words, it takes every ounce of will power I have to pretend not to be affected by him. All I want is to go home with him, but I know I can't. I'm in love with him and all he wants from me is sex. I can't continue to sleep with him. I deserve to have someone love me back and as long as I'm sleeping with him I'm never going to move on. After that song is over I pull away from him. "Thanks." I start to walk away but he grabs my hand stopping me.

"Hey, can we talk now?"

I force a smile on my lips but inside I just want to find an empty room and cry. "We're good, Ian, don't worry about it. We're friends." I pull my hand loose from his grasp and walk off.

"I know you can't. Have you even had a girlfriend?"

"Hey, I can have a girlfriend. I can do relationships. I've just always chose not to until-"

"No, Ian, you can't, and that's okay. I told you, I didn't expect you to be exclusive. We're friends and we will always be friends. Right?"

"That's what you want, Kamdyn? To be my friend?" He looked hurt and disappointed but I wasn't sure why. Does he not even want to be friends anymore? I thought he would be happy I was giving him a way out.

"Of course I want to be your friend. I just don't want to sleep with you anymore. We've

been hooking up for over a year and I just think it's time we stop. You know? It's not fun anymore and it's starting to get weird."

"You really don't want to sleep with me anymore?" His eyes are studying me so closely I can't help but squirm.

"No, I'm sorry, I do want to still be friends though." I really did and hopefully we can be, once I get over him.