Rejected By My Mate novel Chapter 89

The chilly wind brushes my skin gently. But my heart was racing, that made my hands sweaty and beads of sweat formed on my forehead in anxiousness. I couldn’t utter a word because I don’t know how to explain everything to Azrael. If I told him, he wouldn’t let me go. The look in his eyes told me everything he felt as of the moment.

“Alice... Please tell me I’m wrong. You won’t leave me behind, right?” he asked desperately.

I bit my lips hard and looked at Darius. He sighed and said, “It’s up to you, Alice.” Then he entered back into my wrist and turned into a tattoo again. Now, it’s only Azrael and me on the top of the castle with the light of the two moons illuminating us. I could see his face clearly, and his reaction made my eyes well up.

How could I tell him everything? Would he understand my choices? What if he won’t wait for my return?

“Alice…” he begged, now tears streamed down his handsome face.

“Everything you heard was true. Azrael… I am leaving—”

I got cut off by his tight embrace. His shoulder shook momentarily. “NO! I’d rather be with you, Alice. Let me come with you. Please… I can’t live without you by my side.” he choked on his tears and I couldn’t stop the tears anymore from rolling down my face. “Wherever you go, I will follow you. Not even destiny can tear us apart.”

“Azrael…” I cried and sobbed loudly. He held me tight like his life depends on me. This is harder than I thought it would be. How can I leave if he was like this?

“Tell me... why?” he whispered in agony. I clenched my fist tightly into his shirt, afraid to let him go. I feel like I will lose him. Because of overwhelming emotion, my body shook immensely. I can feel his body trembling too and his heart was beating fast with all the emotion he felt.

It’s a simple question, but it’s hard to answer. “Azrael… I’m sorry… I’m sorry I couldn’t fulfill my promise with you.” my tears streamed down my face like a river. He cried harder and even hugged me tight like there’s no tomorrow.

“You promise me… You promise to be with me until eternity. I’m looking forward to your promise, Alice.”

I tried to pull away to look at his face, but he didn’t let me. I nuzzled in his neck instead and murmured, “Azrael, I love you so much that it hurts seeing you like this. But please remember that you are the only man I will always love. No matter what time, no matter what world, no matter what the circumstances are... I will always choose you. I may not be with you physically, but my heart will always be with you wherever you go.” I paused and hugged him tight.

“If I can just bring you with me, I will do it. But… it’s impossible, Azrael. I can’t bring you with me.” more tears streamed down my face nonstop. I sniffled and held his face gently, then pressed our forehead against each other. “My love, I know I promise you eternity and I meant it at the bottom of my heart. I’m doing this because I want to fulfill that promise. Although, it’s a risk I have to take.”

It pained me more when I saw his pained expression. I released a deep breath and cupped his face. “From the moment I decided to stay with you, I have already taken a step to risk everything—even my time with you and the others. It pains me every time I lie to myself that everything will be alright.”

I wipe off his tears with my thumb. “But don’t worry, I will watch you from up there.”

“Alice…” he hugged me tight while crying harder. “I can’t really change your mind, huh?”

“Well then, I will wait for you, Alice. No matter how long it will take you to come back, I will never get tired of waiting for you. Alice, you are my life and my everything. Without you, my life is meaningless. So I’m willing to wait for you, be it a hundred years or thousands of years. I love you so much, Alice.” he said and brushed his lips against mine tenderly. Our kiss deepened as tears streamed down our faces. It’s salty because of the tears, but we didn’t let go of each other.

We pulled away when we were almost out of breath and pressed our forehead against each other.

“Hm, it’s a promise?” I uttered.

“Yes, it’s a promise. Because I believe in us.” he paused and smiled. “And I believe in our love.” He held my hand and put it over his chest. I could feel his heart beating faster, which was in synchronization with mine.

Our love?

I smiled and closed my eyes. Although tears streamed down my face.

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The next morning, I woke up without Azrael by my side. He must’ve attended to the triplets already. Today, I planned to spend time with everyone. I got off of the bed and went to the bathroom.

After doing my daily routine, I went out of my room and I immediately heard laughter coming from downstairs.

I stopped walking when the door beside me opened. It’s Willow.

“Oh! Good morning, Alice!” She happily greeted me and walked towards me with a gentle smile.

“Good morning, Willow!” I hugged her tightly while closing my eyes.

“Alice? Is something wrong?”

I pulled away with a smile, then I saw her frowning while intently staring at me. Her smile had faded and her brows knitted together. I shook my head. “It’s nothing. I just miss hugging you like that!”

But she didn’t smile and continued staring at me. “Alice, I don’t like this feeling,” she uttered while her hand was clenching over her chest. I saw her free hand was trembling. Did I cause that?

I sighed and held her trembling hand. I have a lot of things to tell her, but I don’t have the courage right now. “Willow, just relax and take a deep breath. Stop overthinking. Do you remember what happened when you overthink?” she gasped and nodded. When Willow overthinks, she can't move her body and talk for a week.

“I’m sorry, Alice. I’m just being paranoid.” She gave me a small smile, then did what I told her to do.

“Are you okay now?” I asked, and she hummed. “Then let’s go downstairs.”

“Okay,” she smiled and clung to my arm like a koala, but I didn’t mind because that’s how she acts whenever we were alone. Actually, Willow depends on me more than my other sister. That’s why it worries me so much when I leave. I don’t know how she will take it.

When we arrived in the dining room, everyone greeted us with a smile on their faces. The sight of them made my chest tighten. I will miss this. However, when my eyes landed on Azrael, he was faking a smile. He’s pretending that everything will be alright. I frowned because I hated that smile. I sat beside him and looked at him, but he wasn’t looking at me.

Last night, it overwhelmed my heart with all the emotions mixed and I know it’s the same with Azrael. He is probably still processing what happened last night. Did he regret it?

“Alice, are you okay?” I looked up and saw everyone looking at me. I smile. “Of course! Why wouldn’t I be?” They smiled and nodded.

“Okay, let’s eat!” Mother uttered, and then we ate happily. Sometimes, we chatted a little. Our breakfast became lively.