Winning Her Heart Again novel Chapter 94

Chapter 94: A Mistake

Jasmine's POV

What am I doing? Push him, Jasmine! Damn it. Don't kiss him. Instead of pushing him away, my hand travelled through his neck. I felt our position changed, and he was now on top while I was sitting on a wooden chair.

Damn it! Why can't I do it? I even feel dizzy. He was about to touch me somewhere when I got myself back. I pushed him as hard as I could, which made him distance himself. I saw how he looked at me like he wanted more. I messed up my hair while crying. Fuck I did it again. I'm so foolish!

“ What's wrong?” He asked me if he didn't like that we stopped kissing. I shook my head, I stood up, but he stopped me.

“ Let go of me, Travis. That was not right. Just forget what happened. We were both drunk” I tried to calm myself and wiped my tears.

Why should I always suffer? I shouldn't have let him kiss me.

“ We both did it, Jaz; I know you still love me.” He tried to cup my face, but I just gave him a hard slap. Is that the reason why he is so foolish? Thinking that I might still be in love with him, that's why he's chasing me so he could play with me again?

I can't believe him! What an arrogant man!

“ You know what? Stop dreaming. You're always like that. You will always find my weakness, but this time, you were wrong. I am no longer in love with you, Travis. God, this is a big mistake.“ I turned around and left him there. I even heard him curse.

After that, I didn't come in directly. I went to the park. I touched my lips, and even now, I could still feel his lips pressed into mine. In my frustration, I got a bottle of water in my car and used it to clean my mouth.

I started crying again. Damn it! I shouldn't have kissed him back. Fuck. I made another mistake again. When will I be able to learn from my mistake?

You are supposed to avoid Jasmine. Why did you kiss him? Why did you let him kiss you? Have you lost your mind? I'm so fuck off!

I look insane right now, but I don't care. I can't just let out this feeling inside me. I wanted to cry so badly and rant, but I chose to keep my silence. But for the first time. I already said those words that I've been thinking about for the past years to him.

But I never heard any response. I'd been waiting for him to answer me, but he couldn't even say anything.

Maybe because that was it, that was his decision, that's what he liked. To cheat. To abandon me. Seeing me suffering that day. Maybe there's really no need to answer questions. There's no literal reason for his actions; what he did was his own personal choice.

I also wanted to hear his side, even for just now, but he couldn't tell me. I don't understand him, and maybe I will never understand him because that's what he is.