BEAUTIFULLY UNFINISHED novel Chapter 3

TWO

"Miranda!" Beth and Nina says in unison as they rushed towards me once I entered our hotel room.

Both of them hugged me tight and I tried to smile ruefully, keeping my tears to myself but I feel so disgusted of what I did at the same time. On my way coming here back to my hotel room, all I thought about inside the taxi, was how the hell I got inside Harry's room. Harry Styles' room.

I can't believe I talked to Louis so causally without screaming at his face. I can't believe I had sex with Harry Styles! I still can't believe I gave him my virginity.

I left him with the blood stain on his sheets. Gosh that was so embarrassing. Totally embarrassing. I'm so embarrassed of what I've done.

I wanted to run to the bathroom and take a three-hour shower because I feel like I'm a dirty woman, not because I had sex with Harry but because of that shameful thing I could have done last night that I don't remember. I could be doing embarrassing things that I can't recall. Plus, I don't even remember how magical and painful it could have been even though I'm having muscle pains everywhere right now. I don't remember how it felt like having sex with Harry freaking Styles. I was completely having drunk sex with him. And even though it was Harry Styles, I still couldn't believe that I've finally gave it up. Just like that.

"Where were you? We were worried sick of you! I kept calling." Nina asked.

"Who was that man who asked you to go to the VIP?" Beth asked.

Man?

VIP?

If that man was Harry, they could remember and tell me about him.

"Where did he take you?" Nina added.

I shake my head in disbelief. I'm crying and I don't know why I was crying. I was scared of what happened to me last night. I know he's Harry Styles, and he's the nicest guy I know who I don't even know personally, but I think he couldn't rape me. I know he couldn't.

I'm crying cos I don't remember a thing about what happened and I know I should be happy that I had sex with a worldwide celebrity, but that doesn't mean cos he's famous I'm already okay with it. It's not okay to me. I maybe a fan but what I've done last night was something really unforgivable.

Since I was crying like there was no tomorrow, they led me to the bed and I sat down in between them. They tried to calm me. They rubbed my back and pushed my hair off my face.

"Oh my god what happened to you? Were you raped?" Beth asked.

"I think not. I don't know. I don't remember." My voice shakes. "I can't remember a thing." I add.

I pulled both of my hands up and covered my face. I wiped my tears streaming down on my cheeks and I was doubting if I should tell them about who I saw with in bed this morning. I know they won't believe me but I have proof. I took a photo of Harry sleeping a while ago but I still doubt if they'll believe me that I had sex with him.

"We shouldn't have allowed that man to take you to the VIP." Nina says.

"But you were so persistent. You wanted to go with him. You were so drunk when you agreed to that man, that's why you couldn't remember a thing, I think." Beth adds.

She's right, I couldn't even remember how drunk I was that night.

"You were so giddy last night when we saw Harry, Niall and Zayn passing by our table." Beth blurted.

I paused for a while and finally remembered that part. It all just sank in, Beth is right. We were in one bar last night. I was acting all crazy when I saw the three of them in the same bar as we did. I was so excited that I always take shots one after the other and I never say no to any shots offered. Oh gosh the embarrassment is growing.

"Where were you the entire night? Where did you sleep?" Nina asked worriedly.

"I was at...." I trailed off.

I look at their faces. "Promise me you will believe me."

They nod.

I carefully pulled my iPhone out and slowly opened to my gallery. I placed my iPhone close to my breasts, to hide what was on the screen.

"What are you hiding?" Nina says.

"I had sex last night." I blurted, keeping my phone close to my breasts.

They gasped and covered their mouth at the same time. They looked at me in disbelief.

I gulped.

"You filmed the entire thing?!" Nina exclaimed.

My eyes widened, "What?! No!"

"Then what is it?" Beth asked.

I sigh inwardly.

"I don't know how I ended up to his hotel room but I gave my virginity to this man." I began to say.