BEAUTIFULLY UNFINISHED novel Chapter 4

THREE

"Nervous?" I asked with a smile.

"I am." Ben slightly smiles.

"You'll be doing great on your first day baby. You always do."

When we arrived at his school, I held his hand tight as we walk together to the building. I walked him to his classroom and I think I was more nervous than Ben when we reached his school. I've been to schools and I'm sure there's always big-ass bullies lurking around here. I don't want my son to be bullied for not having a father. I squat down before him as I push his curly hair off from his forehead. He smiles at me sweetly and kisses my cheek then hugs me.

"Thank you for driving me to school for my first day mommy." He says.

I kissed his temple and pulled myself away from him, "Not a problem baby."

"Will you pick me up after school mom?"

I nod. "Of course sweetheart. Enjoy your first day alright? I love you."

He smiled happily, "I love you too mom."

"Follow what your teacher tells you, okay?"

Ben nods.

I stand and watch him as he walks towards his classroom. There were other kids his age too and I'm sure Ben will meet new friends. He's always friendly and always been a good boy. He always blends in any group of people. Ben is shy at first but I'm sure he'll get along with his classmates. Ben is a good kid. I taught him well and I always taught him to be nice even if to those kids who's not nice to him. I marched my way back to my car and drove to the hospital.

Yes, I'm now a registered nurse.

Being pregnant and studying in a medical school at the same time was the hardest thing I've ever been to. I had to control myself from vomiting and throwing up in the middle of the class or even facing dead bodies for our gross anatomy. It was hard. It was terribly and awfully hard for me. But I know I had to be strong for myself and for my baby that's why I passed all through those trials in my life.

I didn't care anymore of what the people were saying about me. All I cared about was to finish my studies. I had to face everyone with chin up even though my baby had no father. I couldn't tell people who the father of my baby was. No one would believe me if I tell them.

If I were in their shoes, I'd do the same thing. I wouldn't believe me either if I say Harry Styles from One Direction got me pregnant.

Come on, it's Harry Styles. People will only think I'm doing this to get famous.

Did I ever regret conceiving this child? Nope. I love Ben. Did I hate the fact that I was pregnant by Harry? Nope. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. Did I get mad cos I got pregnant at a young age? Hell no. Ben is a blessing. Did I hate Harry for what happened and what he did to me? No. I couldn't cos he doesn't know that he's a father to my child.

I raised Ben all alone for seven years without any form of help from anyone to be a father for Ben and I think I can continue on supporting him all by myself until I can save my salary. I haven't been in a relationship because I want my time only focused on Ben. Some men doesn't really want women who have kids and I understand that.

"Morning Miranda." Christian, also a nurse, greeted as he walks towards me.

"Morning Chris." I smiled.

"Coffee?"

"Thanks."

"You're lucky I bought two."

"You always buy one for me and you never forget it." I joked.

He smiles as we walked together to our station, "How's Ben?" He asked.

"It's his first day being a first grader today. He was so excited. I was nervous for him."

He chuckles. "I'm sure he was excited. And I'm sure he'll be okay. He's gotten bigger now."

"Yeah. It takes a lot of getting use to."

He smiled. "Are you going to pick him up after his class?"

"Yeah. I made a promise to him. You know how he reacts when I say my promises."

"You're such a hardworking mom."

I smiled. "I only want what's best for Ben. You know I don't have someone to help me."

He smiles back, "Oh come on, you have me."

I look at him and sometimes I think Christian likes me because he's giving me hints and the other nurses here, teases him that he remains to be single cos he's waiting for a chance from me.

He snaps a smile, "And your girlfriends too." He adds.

I smile back.