BEAUTIFULLY UNFINISHED novel Chapter 34

THIRTY-THREE

Weeks passed by after spending some great time at Villa Roma, we went back to reality. I've been busy with work at Alfonso's, Ben's busy with his school and my lover boy from Doncaster was busy making new music for his artist. I was glad that the lyric change I recommended on that song was included on the new album he was producing.

Vivian was too happy for me when she found out. She said she thanked heavens that I finally found myself a boyfriend and not just an ordinary boyfriend, it was Louis Tomlinson. I told my friends, Beth and Nina, about it too and they were insanely shocked and happy for me. I feel terribly bad for missing them both so much. It's been years since we've seen each other. Beth is in Ireland working as a literature teacher and Nina is in New Jersey working in a bank.

"You do know I love it when you're wearing my shirts?" I hear Louis calling out to me.

I look around and saw him standing by the doorway of his kitchen. He walks towards me and quickly placed his hands over my waist. He kiss my neck continuously.

"And you do know I'm so ticklish when you kiss my neck." I say as giggle.

He chuckle. "And it's sexy.."

Louis doesn't stop in kissing my neck until I begin to make a small squeal. I quickly covered my mouth so I won't wake up Ben. "God, I love you." Louis whispers to my ear.

I smile.

He pulls me in closer and he just hugged me. I feel him kissing the back of my head. "What were you doing here? It's pretty late." He asked.

I spin myself around and faced him. "I was going to make you some coffee. You look like you need one."

He smiles at me. "Love, you really didn't have to bother."

"You're always so busy and you always stay up late." I say as I rub his arms.

"It's fine. I sleep in the day anyways. How about you and I go to the bed now? I got a hang of writing lyrics."

I nodded.

Louis had bought a house here in New York. He said he'll be residing here more often because of us. It was a very sweet gesture of him to be buying a house which was near mine and even though the media have been saying things against me and Louis, all he said to me was never to care about it. He said those people are just bored people who doesn't get a life and doesn't have a great job.

Both of us walked up to the bedroom while Ben was on the other one. I couldn't say that I moved in with Louis, but during the weekends I stay here with him since Ben wants to be with Louis most of the times now. They play video games a lot and I love it that they're both hanging out and enjoying each other's company.

Both of us settled down the bed and I quickly laid my head on top of his bare chest. I begin to play my fingers over his tattoos while his hand was busy rubbing my spine which by the way gave me hot tingling sensations running over my body.

And no, we still didn't have sex.

We just sleep together in one bed most of the times and even though I'm getting horny when he touches me, I don't want to initiate.

"Love?" He calls out.

I pulled my head up to him. "Yes?"

"Are you and Ben free next weekend?"

"Next weekend? Why?"

He laced in fingers with mine. "Cos I'm going to England."

I arched an eyebrow. "And?"

"And I'm taking both of you with me. I'm going to introduce you to my family."

I gaped. "Louis. No. Fucking. Way."

He looks confused. "You don't want to meet my family?"

"Of course I do!" I threw myself at him and hugged him as tight as I could.

He chuckles.

"I'm pretty excited already!" I squealed.

I pulled myself away from him and realized that I was spreading my legs open for him and I was on top. His hands were both on my thighs and he smiled at me. I feel his bulge pressed against me.

"But after we meet my family, Im taking you out for some private dinner party." He says.

"Fancy dinner? That means I need to wear something nice?"

He nods. "Yeah. Don't worry, we can find something in England."

The way his hand moving up and down my thighs was making me feel like I'm wetting my own underwear. His motions were slow and constant while his eyes were looking up at me. We didn't make a sound and I think his bulge was growing.

Slowly, he reached for my cheek. He cups it and slowly pulled me down to kiss him. We begin to kiss each other passionately like we were both hungry for each other. He begins to pull my shirt off of me, leaving me with my underwear on.

"God you're beautiful." He pushes my hair behind my ear.

I begin to rub myself against his bulge and I haven't had sober sex before. Louis is the first man I'd be having it consciously. He begins to moan against my mouth as I kiss him again. He carries me effortlessly and placed me down the bed, now he's on top. My hands were placed around his neck while he was grasping my breasts.

"You're perfect in my hands." He says.

He kisses my lips briefly then begins to kiss me under my jaw, on my neck then down to my breasts. He licks my nipples and started sucking them.

"Argh.." I grasp his hair.

His other hand was busy pulling my panty down and I helped him with. He throws it to the floor, and I was completely naked under him. He rubs my inner thigh and I've been needing him to get inside me now. My hands involuntarily moved down to reach for his bulge and my breath hitch when he was already hard.

This is it.

Louis begins to insert two fingers inside, I moaned softly, while he was still licking my nipples and his thumb making a circular motion on my nub. He's multitasking and it's giving me so much pleasure that's been running all over my body, most especially in between my thighs. I kept grasping on his hair as he gains a little speed on fingering me.

"Oh God." I moaned.

I didn't know this could feel good. I didn't know I could have so much pleasure from this. I didn't know it will feel like this. I opened my eyes and Louis' face over me. He smiles at me before kissing my lips.

I hear the sound of him shuffling his pajamas and I think he's taking it off. He pulls himself away from me and I was correct. He pulled down his pjs. I've never seen an erected cock, aside from Harry's soft one which was basically seven years ago. Louis had one elbow on the bed for support and I watch as he stroke his with the other hand slowly. He puts saliva on his free hand then rubs it over his head.

Oh my god this is really it. This is really happening. Louis and I are going to fuck.

With no words said, he slowly moves closer and I feel his tip on my entrance. He slowly goes inside of me as I take a deep breath in. He's not moving yet but both of his elbows were leaning on the bed. He kisses me deeper and longer but he's still not moving.

"I love you Miranda." He tells me.

"I love you too." I responded.

"I'm going to move." He says to me.

I nod.

"I'm going to make love to you." He adds while kissing me under my jaw.

"Don't you love him? Cos I do. I even wish uncle Harry was my dad cos he's very cool and he cares for you. And he ties my hair."

I sigh heavily.

"What about uncle Louis?" I asked. "Don't you want him to be your dad?"

"I want that too but I want uncle Harry more because we look the same." Ben answers.

Because he's your father. I thought.

"But that doesn't mean I don't love uncle Louis. He makes me laugh and he tickles me. He buys me toys. He loves me too like how he loves you." Ben added.

I leaned closer and hugged Ben. I feel guilty and I pity my son for the things I've been hiding from him. I'm the worst mom. I'm the worst for what I've done.

I kiss his temples and the things that he is saying makes me wanna cry. He's only six but he talks like he's a big man. He talks like he knows the things that are happening around him even if I don't say it to him.

I hear a honk from outside.

"Uncle Louis' here!" Ben runs out of his bedroom.

I pulled myself up. "Careful Ben!" I called out as I grab his bag from the bed.

I headed downstairs holding my bag and Ben's. He opened the front door and jumped on Louis' arms. The view of that makes me really happy. At least Louis is being a father to Ben and I know it should be Harry on his place but he's nowhere to be seen and I know it's because of me.

I walk near Louis and he kisses my cheek right away. "Hey beauty." He says.

I smiled as I kiss his lips briefly. "Hello my lover boy from Doncaster."

He chuckles. "I kind of hate and love it when you call me that."

I smile.

"Let's go already! I can't wait to ride the airplane!" Ben whines.

Both of us laughed together as we head to the car. I was excited to go to England too since it'll be my very first time to be away from New York and to travel, but then it means I'll be in the same country as Harry and Audrey does.

I wonder if I'm ready to face them.

•••••

Finally, after almost our eight hour flight, we safely landed England. Ben was obviously excited for it, he woke up earlier at the plane a while ago. Louis and I walked hand in hand out of the airport, while Louis was holding Ben on his other hand. There were paps who saw us arriving and they were about to chase us but good thing we quickly got inside Louis' car and took off.

"Welcome to England." Louis says to us.

"Oh my god mommy look!" Ben calls out.

"You wanna tour around London? We could do it tomorrow." Louis chimed.

"We can? Oh my god I'm so excited mom! Please say we can mom? Please?" Ben begs and of course I'd agree to that, I also want to tour around England.

"Are you ready to meet my family, love?" Louis asked me before kissing the back of my hand.

Am I ready? I asked myself.

"Yes." I answered.