JUST GOT LUCKY novel Chapter 36

CHAPTER 36

RIPPLES

LINDY'S POV

After Liverpool, they'll be heading to Newcastle then Glasgow in Scotland which sounded a little exciting because the places he has been, I haven’t been. Harry has told me that it was going to be their last concert in Glasgow before they are going to take a break from touring for a month. It seemed like he was going to still be busy from touring since I am sure they will still be doing promotions or TV shows or radio shows and I don’t want to complain because that has been his lifestyle even before he met me and I am most utterly proud of him.

I downloaded the song Harry sang a while ago and it was heartbreaking to listen to since it was talking about us. I was crying while I was listening to it especially when he sang his part on the song. Listening to the message of the song tremendously breaks my heart because it reminded me of how much he wanted to tell the world about me but I know he mustn’t.

I dont wanna be the reason for his downfall on his career just because he is dating a nobody. Im thinking about his future, what the management and his millions of fans are gonna say if they find out he's dating a non famous girl. I’m also worried for myself because I dont wanna be harrassed by rude comments and people invading my privacy because as much as possible I don’t want to be on the limelight. I dont want anyone's attention saying Im just dating Harry only because he's famous. They dont know the truth.

They don't know about us.

I've also googled Liam, Zayn and Louis' girlfriends a while ago and their girlfriends were strikingly gorgeous. I realized one thing, I was completely far to be compared to them. They looked really pretty and could definitely pass as a model and they always seem to look good.

Im not tall. Im not that attractive and I am highly not stylish. I dont have the perfect hair or the perfect long legs to be proud about. I dont wear the latest trends and I dont even fix myself or put make up on. Im out of Harry’s league and I clearly dont belong in his world. It's too perfect and shimmering and it’s not a place I can be included in. Even though I know I should not feel like this but I still cannot help but feel so small of myself. I’m just an ordinary girl from Canada.

It was already 3AM on a saturday and Im still thinking about the interview he did a while ago. I was still completely bothered about it and reading the comments on YouTube about Harry made it more worst. He hasnt called me, Im sure he fell asleep right away when he got to his hotel room. I mean, they all did that interview after having their concert.

I was still online on my Skype and I dont know why I was waiting for him even though I know he probably won’t go online anymore. I turned to my twitter instead and just wanted to express it all out after thinking about it for the past few hours which has been making me completely bothered.

@lindyswanepoel: I am your sweetest downfall.

I looked on his account and saw tweets from him hours ago. How could I not notice these ones?

@harry_styles: Liverpool! You were amazing! Wont forget it!

@harry_styles: I cant wait for those days when I dont have to go online to be with you .xx

I smile as I stare at his tweet.

Suddenly, I hear a voice talking which made me flinched as I realized that I was still wearing my headset on. "And why is my beautiful girlfriend smiling?"

I quickly got on my Skype window and there he was, Harry Styles, sitting down on a couch with his black shirt and that adorable smile on his face.

"Hi baby." He greeted.

I smiled at him. "Hey."

"Why do you look so sad?" he asked.

I moved my head sideways. "Nothing. Just missing you." I reasoned.

He slightly grinned. "And what's with this tweet?

I got quiet and he was looking at reluctantly. “You’re the most horrible liar. I know nothing’s wrong.” He tells me.

I smile, “Harry, I’m fine.”

"I know you’re not. Now dont tell me nothing's wrong because I know there is." he sounded serious while he intenly stares at me.

I didnt answer him. "Baby?" he called my attention.

"I saw your interview a while ago on that talk show." I blurted out.

"And?"

"Im sorry."

His brows creasing, "Why?"

I smiled at him. "Let's not talk about it. I dont wanna ruin your morning."

"Lindy tell me. C'mon."

I sigh as I tried to look for words to tell him. "Well, I was really touched by what you did a while ago. It was really romantic. But Im sorry if Im forcing you to lie about us."

He just stared at me so I continued talking. "I feel bad about it. But I was only thinking it was good for you and me if we dont tell anybody. Plus, I googled the other boys' girlfriends and I cant help not to compare myself to them.”

“Lindy.” Harry sounded stern.

“I mean look at me. Im far from how they look Harry." I say.

"Lindy, I loved you with whatever you have and whatever you look. You are beautiful and I wont get tired of telling you that because it’s true. You have to learn to love yourself because thats the only way you can tell yourself that you’re beautiful.” He scolds me.

Harry breathes, “And will you stop comparing yourself to them? They're all far from you. Look at you, you dont need to put make up on just to look pretty. You don’t have to wear the dresses with the latest fashion to impress me.”

“Being you is enough for me and that’s what I loved about you.” he adds.

I was in tears getting all emotional and I was happy that I was able to get this out of my chest. Self pity was what I felt the entire day after I saw their interview. I didnt have enough confidence with what I look because I look more regular than I already am and when I saw that interview a while ago it made me feel sad because I have been missing him and I felt bad that he had to lie about us when he shouldnt have to. All the emotions are mixing inside me and it feels so heavy not letting all of this out. I was crying and I didnt want him to see me like this.

"Baby please dont cry.” Harry cooed. “Lindy no. Please do not cry out of this petty reason.”

I continued wiping my tears away and smiled at him. "Im fine. I just miss you so much and everything else is adding up."

"I want you to know that even if I cannot tell the world about you and about us just yet, just always remember that I love you.”

I nod.

“Im going to tell you a knock knock joke to cheer you up." he blurted getting all pumped up.

I chuckle softly as I wipe my tears away.

"Knock knock." he said.

"Who's there?" I asked.

"Amish."

I paused and stared at him reluctantly, "Amish who?"

"Awwe, so sweet. I miss you too baby."

I bursted into laughter and with that corny joke, he made me laugh. It was as pathetic as it looked but I still adore him for exerting effort in talking to me despite his busy schedule and managed to still make time for me even after thei concert. Harry is busy and I need to understand that because if I wont, then this relationsgip won’t work. I want this with him as much as he wants this.

"Oh it's good to hear you laugh." He smiles.

I chuckle softly and thinking to myself of how I love this guys and how amazing that he makes everything so easy. "I told you, you'll need my daily dose of knock knock joke." he adds.

I smiled at him. "Baby?" I called out.

"Yeah?"

"I want you to enjoy when you are with the boys while you're not with me. I want you to always have fun and continue living your life. Promise me that."

They turned their heads to the menu and saw the large sign of Chicken Tikka Masala as I laughed at them They turned their heads back to the table and smiled.

"Sneaky." Louis commented.

I grinned.

"So how are you and Lindy?" Zayn asked.

"We're good. Everything's all right." I answered.

"Has she seen the interview?" Liam asked.

I nodded.

"And was she okay that you denied her globally?" Louis questions.

"I didnt deny her. I didnt say I had a girlfriend either." I answered.

"But when are you going to tell the world about her? They'll find out sooner or later." Zayn added.

"I dont know.” I answer honestly. “I cant risk her privacy out because of me. She'll get hates because of me, I'm sure of that and I don’t like that to happen to her. Words hurt more.”

"Then that's gonna be hard for the two of you." Niall blurted after sipping on his juice.

I moved my eyes to Niall and I agree with him a hundred percent. "I know. But we'll always find a way to see each other. I will find every way possible."

“But for how long man?” Zayn asks as we travelled our eyes towards him. “I mean how long will you be able to find a way to see each other in secret?”

Liam nods, “Sooner or later you will get caught, Harold.”

Louis nods too, “And don’t let me get started talking about the management Harry.”

I groan confusedly. “I don’t know…. what to actually think when I am reminded about the management. I know they’re all suspicious now.”

“Why did you have to post that photo on the socials? It could have been better if you didn’t and just kept it to yourself.” Louis nags at me.

“I jsut couldn’t help it. I didn’t want to delete it too afte posting it, Lindy might feel bad.” I answered.

Liam sighs, “It’s quite a handful Harry. I know things will turn around eventually.”

“I hope things will turn around in a good way, Liam.” I responded.

They got quiet for a while and we just ate silently. I know they were also worrying for me and Lindy and we know all we could do right now is stay quiet about it as much as we could and keep all the stuff to ourselves. As long as the management is not doing anything yet, I will still keep this with Lindy even if the management will not know.

"How about your vacation in Canada?” Liam ended the silence between our table. “We're not gonna be there for you. How are you gonna handle it?”

I paused and took a spoonful of the Chicken Tikka Masala as they stare at me intently. The four of them looked worried so I answered reassuringly, "I'll find a way.”

"Good luck on that Harold." Louis answers.

Niall turns to me, “Have you ever thought what you’ll tell the management once they will know about Lindy?” He asks.

“I haven’t yet.” I answered.

“You better not deny her or I swear to God.” Louis warns.