The Brutal Alpha's Tender Daughter novel Chapter 12

Whatever my farther had talked with him about, it made me uneasy, especially concerning Levin's look.

"Enough of all this!", Silas suddenly said, "You two just found each other, you shouldn't concern yourself with this unnecessary stuff, just with each other."

I felt myself blush and heard Levin's embarassed chuckle.

"You're right!", Levin replied and then turned to look into my eyes.

"Would you erm...show me your room?", he asked somewhat nervously, if his hand rubbing the back of his neck was any indication.

I smiled sweetly at him. As if I could ever deny my mate anything.

I glanced at Silas before I left the attic with Levin and saw a frown appearing on his forehead as he watched us.

It made me feal uneasy, because whatever was worrying my brother, it had something to do with Levin and I.

On the way back to my room I still thought about the look of my brother.

My brother worried seldom about anything, so for him to be bothered by something spoke volumes.

My insecurities used this opportunity to voice their opinions.

What if my bother was worried about Levin's family accepting me?

What if they would be as disappointed in me as my family and pack?

And even worse, what if Levin would reject me for being weak?

I felt myself being sucked into this vicious circle of thinking.

I had not even noticed that we had already arrived at my door.

"Sophia?", Levin's unsure voice brought me back to the present and I shook my head in order to get rid of these unheahlty thoughts.

However, Levin knew that something was wrong and once inside my room he tightened his hold on me and tugged me towards him.

I was now in his embrace and let myself sink into my mate.

Never had I felt more safe than in his arms.

His lips were now close to my ear.

"It was only natural that we discussed our life at home and our family. I soon realized how much Silas loathed his parents and pack or rather what they believed in. Silas is always so confident, but when I talked about my family and pack I saw this deep longing to be part of something like this."

My heart had accelerated during Levin's story, because while I had known that Silas did not really like it here in the Mercy pack, I had no idea that he actually longed for something else.

Silas had always been respected and even loved, not only by my parents but also by the pack members. I was aware of the differences in his beliefs and theirs, but I always thought he saw the fault in that in our parents' leadership and not in the pack members themselves. However, when Levin just mentioned Silas' longing of wanting to be part of a pack just like Levin's, I realized for the first time that Silas had felt out of place his whole life too.

Guilt consumed me, because my big brother had always been there for me, but I had never been there for him. I had always thought that he fit right in. He had other beliefs sure, but I would had never thought that he longed for something else.

Tears escaped my eyes as I pondered on my selfishness.

"Do you know why he even stayed as long as he did?", Levin then asked me and softly grabbed my chin in order for me to look at him.

I nodded my head and the very thought hit me hard and made me cry even harder.

I was the sole reason why Silas could not start the life he wanted. I knew that it was hard being rogue, something he would become as soon as he was no longer part of our pack, but I was also aware of how strong my brother was, not only physically, but mentally too. Silas would had made his way, but he had stayed for me, not living his dream.