The Brutal Alpha's Tender Daughter novel Chapter 29

"Do you want to see my list?", Noah rescued me once again from sinking to deep into my dark past.

"I'd love to.", I smilingly responded and laughed when Noah raced to a big house right in front of us.

It looked cosy and had a warm glow, probably due to the light yellow colour of the external facade. Big windows with flower crates underneath made the house look even more friendlier.

I followed the laughter of children behind the house and saw 3 girls and 2 boys playing with each other.

They all looked so carefree and happy that a part deep inside of me wept for my cold and dull childhood. After the bird accident I had not been allowed to see my friends anymore as a punishment. My parents thought the less social contact I had with other pack members, the more my sensitive and weak personality would dwindle, as I had no reason to be concerned about someone. However, once I had been old enough to join the fighting classes my parents had soon discovered that my personality had still been the same - a huge disappointment for them. So they had ordered all children in my class to ignore me and to never speak with me - it had been an Alpha command so everybody had to obey.

Through Dr. Clairence I had realized that my depression had started right about this time and after thinking and talking it through with her again and again, it seemed almost impossible not to get depressed and that gave me hope, because I, my personality and values, were not the reason for my mental health issues, but my parents and their behaviour and actions towards me were.

It had taken me a long time, but I had accepted that I was a victim and there had been nothing I could have done to make my parents think otherwise, even if I still believed that I could maybe make them proud, make them love me.

Dr. Clairence always told me that making one's parents proud and wanting them to love one were basic needs and even if we had experienced time and time again that anything we did was not good enough and did not make them love us, we would try and try again. Because the inner child in us demanded to be loved and dotted on.

I felt tears burning in my eyes, but quickly tried to get rid of them as the kids had noticed me staring at them.

Curiously they came closer until the seemingly oldest child asked me, "Do you want to play with us?"

A smile unintentionally appeared on my lips, because as a kid being asked to play with someone had been my biggest desire.

"I'd love to!"

The kids cheered and never in my life had I felt more belonged. My wolf's tail wagged, being content about the children's happiness, but also about us being wanted.

After everybody had introduced themselves and they had explained to me the rules of hide and seek, a game I had never heard or played before, a fun afternoon started that I would never forget.

I rose from my seat and continued, "Thank you for your kind invitation, but I think I've got to return now."

"Noooo, I want you to stay!", Noah suddenly said and I could see him pouting. This melted my heart and I could feel tears starting to form in my eyes.

"I'll just come back tomorrow.", I tried to make a deal with Noah, but he was not having it.

"Faith always makes more anyway, right?", he said and looked pleadingly at the woman beside him, who was apparently called Faith.

She chuckled and lovingly pinched Noah's cheek to which he giggled.

"He's right Sophia, we would love to have you."