The Brutal Alpha's Tender Daughter novel Chapter 5

"They crowd would've been giddy with excitement. My parents would've congratulated the winner and would've been so proud of them."

How I wished my parents would had shown me any sign of pride or joy.

However, the moment the announcer had held my hand up, the crowd had errupted into furious shouts, my parent's eyes had narrowed and I had been able to feel their displeasure.

I kept talking to Dr. Clairence for a while, feeling a bit better as always that someone understood me.

As was our ritual, she told me at the end of our conversation that I now should do something for myself, something that would make me happy, even if it was just a a small thing.

With a small smile on my face I entered my bathroom and filled up my tub.

The girl looking back at me tried to smile at me.

Tried being the operative word.

I sighed and willed myself to try again.

This time the corners of my mouth were lifted higher, but it did not seem like a smile, more like a grimace.

I winced and let my "smile" drop.

It was no use.

I could not smile at myself and find three things that went well today.

The words of my mother wanting to speak with my father about my behaviour at training overshadowed any slightly good situation that might had happened today.

I was frightened to my very core, because the last time she had talked with my father about something I did, it had not ended well for me.

However, I tried to push this unsettling feeling away concentrating on something, anything, that would make me feel good - would make me smile.

I still remember the day he left like it was yesterday. I had cried in my room for weeks not wanting to let anybody see how devastating him leaving had been for me. Not only was I now exposed to my parents hostilities and punishments, but I also lost my best friend and confidant.

Silas had always been there for me and had shielded me as best as he could from my parents' and pack members' crushing opinions about me. I had always known that no pack member really liked me and that my parents were disappointed in me, but once Silas was gone I realized how deep their hatred had really gone.

I had fallen into a deep depression after Silas' leave, but with the help of Dr. Clairence I had managed to overcome it.

"Think happy thoughts", her voice reminded me and I willed myself to follow her advice.

Once Silas was back, which could be any day, and would be announced Alpha a lot would change and I could not wait for it to happen.

Silas was a born figher, like my parents, but unlike them he did not see it as a necessity going off to war. Furthermore, I knew that he was unhappy with the ethics in the Mercy pack and how he wanted to change them once he was Alpha.

The only problem was that our father had to agree to give the Alpha position to Silas, which I could not imagine for another ten years. Meaning, Silas would have to fight him for the title.

In other packs it was common that fights last until one wolf submits, but in the Mercy pack we fought until death.