The Brutal Alpha's Tender Daughter novel Chapter 71

"Over the years my parents' mental abuse only got worse and there was a time I wasn't even able to get out of bed. Silas somehow managed to get me help in form of a pychiatrist, Dr. Clairence. She diagnosed me with depression and panic as well as anxiety attacks. And she also found out that I'm a highly sensitive person meaning that I perceive sensory stimuli deeper than others and due to that react stronger to situations."

As much as I had worked with Dr. Clairence on my self-esteem I still felt small and ashamed telling Nathan about my diagnosis. It always bothered me if people thought badly about me, but Nathan's opinion about me mattered the most. I hated that I could not be more self confident.

"Dr. Clairence made me aware that depression and panic attacks happen often to highly sensitive person especially if their environment doesn't show consideration for them."

While I told Nathan about my diagnosis I could feel his heart beating strongly in his chest. His hug on me had only tightened, but I feared the emotions I would see once I lifted my eyes to his.

"I fought Dr. Clairence tooth and nail, but in the end I took her prescribed drugs. I know now that I should've taken them from the very start, because they helped me a lot, but I thought that they would make me weak."

I could not thank Dr. Clairence enough for her patience with me, because our talks and the drugs had saved my life.

"I still have panic and sometimes anxiety attacks, but since I'm here in the Crescent Moon pack I just had a few and I could even reduce the dose of my medication."

It was very hard for me to confide in Nathan, because if he could not handle these information I feared that everything between us would change. I knew it in my heart that I could not survive Nathan rejecting me.

"You're the strongest person I know.", Nathan suddenly told me and I instantly lifted my head only to see the sincerity in his eyes.

He placed a gentle kiss to my forehead and continued. "Not only did you survive the hell your parents and pack put you through, but you also managed to maintain your beautiful personality. You didn't let them break you!"

I shook my head, because I had to make him understand, "But I did let them break me, the depression and panic attacks are proof of that."

Nathan gently took my face into his warm hands and with determination in his voice he told me, "It was you and you alone who managed to piece yourself together again. They never broke your spirit."

Tears were running down my face, because of how much his words meant to me. I had never seen Nathan's point of view, but now that I did I was insanely proud of myself.

Gently Nathan wiped and kissed away my tears.

"You're so strong baby. I knew that you were scared to death to tell me all this, but nevertheless you did."

He seemed guilty when he admitted, "I've already known that Sophia."

Wide eyed I stared at him, because I could not believe that Nathan had been this loving to me when he had known all along that my father was behind everything.

"You're not mad?"

Nathan noticed my shocked expression and shook his head in denial.

"Not at you Sophia, never at you!"

He gently placed me on the bench again so he could stand up and walk up and down in front of me.

"I'm furious at your father, but not only because of what he did to me, but because of what you had to experience because of him too. How dare he destroys your life with his hurtful and manipulative words. I'm so fucking angry at him. I swear to you Sophia, I'm going to make him regret every single thing he has ever done to you!"