Forbidden novel Chapter 5

I woke up with an aching throbbing between my legs. Damn him! I looked around and noticed that it was still late.

I tried getting up but ended up wincing, why do I always give myself for him?

Why am I so easy when he’s around?

Why do I keep letting him touch me?

I am so messed up, this is wrong… Travis is a bully; he’s a devil and he’s… my future step brother.

I hate him!

I hate him so much for liking him so much at the same time!

I pulled my covers over my head and mentally cried for being so pathetic!

“Mare,” I heard Ethan say, I pulled my cover off of me and looked at his back as he sits at the end of my bed.

I watch as he dug his head on his hands.

The way his head slump tells me that he was in so much pain. It was just like during that time again, when he found out that his brother and the girl whom he loves so much started going out, he was so heart-broken that even I felt his pain, after all I’ve been there… it was also during that time when I found about Travis and his true colours.

He never actually cared nor loves me; it was all a game, a game where my heart and innocence

would be the price and he won and right now he’s still winning.

During that time we were both similar, we were both torn, and the cause was from the person we love the most.

During that time we both vowed that we would protect and take care of each other from then on, so that we wouldn’t feel the same pain we felt. So that we won’t be broken again, even though were both slowly healing our scars it’s still never enough because now that same scar is being open once again.

“What’s wrong?” I asked as I soothingly rub his back while trying to ignore the painful ache between

my legs.

“It hurts, I don’t think I can keep doing this…” he whispered and I notice how he tries to keep his voice steady.

“Don’t worry I’m here, we’ve been through this before and we can go through it again,” I quietly said

but all I got was a sniff from him.

Wait—don’t tell me he’s crying?

I cupped his face and made him turn to face me and the sight of him broke my heart.

My cheerful Ethan, he was crying… it was so heart breaking.

“Awe…” I pulled him into a hug and let him cry his heart out onto my shoulder.

Even though we’ve been through this he never cried and this tell me that something bad must’ve

happen.

“Stop crying,” I said as I pull away from him, I cupped his face and looked at him straight in the eyes.

“I… I’m sorry, I don’t think I can stay here anymore,” he hiccupped

“What?”

“I walked in on them, and it was too painful…” he managed to say as his voice cracks.

“Shh…” I wiped his tears with my thumbs and he forced a smile.

“I’m planning on moving to Canada, I’ve been thinking of this for a long time and seeing them two I guess I finally got the guts to make a decision. I’ll stay with my cousin over there and hopefully I can forget about her,” he said and I just looked at him while trying not to cry.

“I’m sorry for being weak Mare,” he said as he hugs me.

“When will you leave?” I asked while trying not to cry but I was too weak.

“I got my ticket for tomorrow; I know this is sudden but…”

“I understand, but you have to promise that you will come and visit me” I said cutting him off.

He nodded and I force a smile out.

I pulled him down to my bed and cuddled into him and just like that we both felt into a deep peaceful sleep from all the dramas going on.

I woke up with the same painful ache on between my legs and only noticed that there was no one beside me.

I looked at the time and noticed that it was seven in the morning; I went to get change to get ready for school.

I just put on a yellow summer dress with white flats as I went downstairs to find that the house was empty.

Where was Ethan?

I looked for my phone and dialled his number but no one responded.

He probably went off to school, but why didn’t he wait for me?

I got to school early today and I headed straight to homeroom, I haven’t seen Ethan anywhere so I started to worry, as soon as the bell rung I headed to first period which was PE and a lesson where I would likely find Ethan.

But he wasn’t there.

It couldn’t be…

He can’t…

I gathered all my courage and approached Ethan’s basketball coach.