Apprehended By My Mate novel Chapter 52

"I love you Grace, Mummy will always love you." I close the bathroom door to Grace screaming and crying out my name. I want to run back to her and hold her in my arms forever but my body is leading me and I have no choice but to follow. I find the cabinet and my body knows exactly what to look for. I sit down on the cool tile floor and open up the cap to the white bottle.

My wolf is pacing inside my head saying something but my mind is in such a faze that I don't understand a word she is saying. I feel her disappear into the fog that controls me. I hear Grace screaming for me on the other end as my finger touch the cool metal that I calling to me like a beckon.

Do it Clare, you have nothing to live for anymore. You are a worthless person who is just taking up space as per usual.

His voice is the only one that I can hear aside from my beautiful daughter who is in the other room. I press the metal into my skin drawing perfect lines across my milky scared skin. I don't feel pain, I don't feel anything. My wolf is causing more trouble inside of my head and Grace's cries becomes even louder. Tears run down my face onto the floor along with blood.

Deeper Clare, you have to get deeper or are you too stupid to even do that.

My chest is tightening as I listen to his voice like I always do. I have no power over my body as the metal slide deeper and deeper. Thick, dark, red blood is all I can see, smell and hear. The gushing sound as blood leave my body and enters the world falling down my arm and onto the floor where it sits accumulating into a puddle.

There is more yelling than before coming from both Grace and my head. I don't understand anything anymore and sobs escape me along with all my pain and suffering.

"Clare, oh my god, Clare." I cannot see the person but there voice is cutting through my self-induced fog.

"I can't do it anymore, please let me go." I don't even know if this person can understand me but it doesn't matter because soon the fog will become so consuming I will have no choice but to fall into it with welcome arms.

"Momma no." I hear Grace scream along with another voice.

"Get her out of here!" More tear fall down my face and I no longer have any feeling in my arm. My body is cold, paralysed as the fog starts to consume me.

"Why?"

"She looked upset before even if she was denying it." The other said. I frown as an unsettling feeling starts to grow inside my chest.

"Have you seen her or not?" I start pacing as my wolf is very unsettled and this feeling that something is wrong keeps growing bigger and bigger by the second. My wolf stops pacing and is gone. I stop the moment he is gone and when he comes back he is shouting for me to get to Clare. I can feel Clare's wolf inside my head with me and she is in a grief stricken state as my wolf tries to calm her down.

I then feel for my connection to Grace and find her in a panic state. I don't talk anymore as I take off to where I can sense Grace. I hit the hallways to where our room is where I can hear Grace screaming her mums name over and over again. I know something bad has happened and I burst into the room to see a red, tear faced Grace trying to get off the bed.

"Momma no, pwease, momma!" She yells. The little girl in such distress that she doesn't even recognise that I am in the room along with Karen and Lucy who followed me. I look toward the locked door and my wolf and Clare's wolf are going insane. I take a deep breath and smell the rusty smell of blood. NO!